GOD'S LOVE

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PLEASE WATCH THIS VIDEO
It just humbled me and gave me a graphic description of what God goes thru to save us from ourselves, how much the devil teases us with what we think are the goodness of life.
 It actually brought me to tears to see all we need is to get on our knees and just go before God and he wld fight our battles for us.
 God is awesome beyond words and I am truly grateful for the gift of life and a chance to right every wrong.....

NEWNESS

Hey y'all,
 How av u guys been? its been a pretty cool saturday for me......
I woke up and started getting myself prepped for my Naija trip.....
Wow! so excited, i need a break from this madness of work/school
I am glad I am going to see my family, friends and I am loving the unknown........
My sister's wedding is going to be fun I can tell and I am just excited for her......
I am thrilled for my parents haha at least they are getting rid of us in bits now.......
Its been a roller coaster 2 weeks but I am glad clarity is setting in ..........
I look forward to a fresh start, I want to be in that place God has set apart 4 me......
It gets better lifes challenges teaches me each day and gets me closer to God.....
So much to say, 4 now Ill nurse it in and wait for God to unfold this scenes 2 come
I need some excitement in my life though, feel like a big bore these days.......
I think I have been so tied up into other pple's well being I forgot about me......
So its time for change 2011 definitely aint coming cheap, I tell ya......
The wisdom of our elders we rid off sumtimes but if we take a min to ponder!!!!!
They definitely know a lot of what they say and experience sure is d best teacher........
Anyways not much to write, about to skype with my sis Jade catch up on stuff :)
Alrighty its been fun back ere and special shout out to my girls.....................
Gretel, Tisha, Myne, Kabiyesi and Cheeks for always stopping by......
Adios mwah!

ANGER!!!!

I am angry or maybe I was angry, but I have never birth so much venom......
I was raged, I felt my pressure go up, my blood heated..................
I was becoming that monster, that one that comes thru wen I feel pained/betrayed........
Everyone said I should forget it, let it go, keep my cool I struggled to for dayzzzz
Then the ticker went off, I could not take it I had to explode, i had to vent........
I felt better, I had lifted all I nursed around a while out but...................
I realize my anger is raw and damaging wen I feel slighted!!!!
Dear God, I held on for a bit longer but now I truly understand ur words......
Let not the sun go down on ur anger, revenge is mine says the lord.......
The human mind is incapable of controlling its rage unless we release it......
Its just hard atimes, I take a lot and can allow continuous push but.......
When my back is against the wall, a slight brush........
I muster all the times I av been pushed and push back......
My push dents a wall, I try really try not to go there, I wear a mask ........
A constant smile, vulnerable attitude which often looks weakening......
Its the only mirage to mask this ugly vice I av TEMPER........
I have not damaged anything, I av not done do Undoable but.......
I wish I didint get bruised easy or hurt so deep then nothing would matter.........
I cant change life, I can change how I see it and my reaction to it..........
Anger eats at you from every direction, ur mind is blurred, ur heart is heavy,
Ur thinking is irrational, its no wonder the good lord asks for us to tame it.......
I am not proud of how bad it can get when I feel hurt......
Its worse off  when the ones who offend u r unapologetic.......
I read a friend's blog on Unforgiveness and sumtin struck a chord....
Its not like we dont want to forgive but it feels like giving power to d offender......
The lord Jesus christ took more and for me so how much more I????
I hope I get closure from today's doing but..........
I av chosen to go back home today and get on my knees and talk to God......
I av been told my temper might mar me, but its not a place I want to be........
I feel good writing this and I am grateful for my parents talking to me thru this......
My Dad said "U dont throw the baby out with the bath water"
My Mum said "Patience is a virtue"
I would take the words of my elders and engrave them on my heart........
The world is not worth negative energy if I choose to smile thru it...........
God bless u all have a gud evening!!

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DADDY'S PRINCESS

The floor was cold, the bars were colder......

It was dark, it was all too familiar its been 2 yrs

The lights went out, the whispers were like crickets

The night was long and lonely but his mind was blurred................
He felt the heat of moist trickle down his face.....

The knot in his chest tightened as he tried to breathe

He reached under his pillow for his flash light........
He pulled out her picture from his bible and there she was
His lil angel, her smile was beautiful and harmless....
He thot to himself...how do I make her understand?
What do I tell her, whats she been told?
Her father was sent to prison for trying to keep her alive!
So he decided to write and hoped one day soon enough
He would make her understand how love can make u do wrong......
DEAR LILY,
I loved you from the day I was told you were a seed growing
I loved the woman who carried you day in day out..........
I loved her more as she grew heavier and all swollen with you......
I smiled to the future and promised to bring heaven on earth to you both
Days turned to weeks and then to months, Ur mother birthed you.......
As I carried ur little being in my hands, I neva pictured a better moment.......
I thanked God for honouring me to watch over you here on earth...........
I thanked ur mum for the strength and courage to carry you all thru.........
I cannot be there for you now, an error in judgement brings this pain
As we journeyed home that day, thru the rain I had only one priority.....
To get my baby girl home safe to some warmth and ur mum to rest......
We approached an intersection but my focus was on you and ur mum
I ran a red light and hit a pedestrian, I felt the impact and rushed out......
A teenage boy was flat down bleeding from the side............
I was trying to pull over on the side of the road wen a cop showed up!!!
He saw me *escaping* but as I tried to explain my intentions it got heated......
He said I threatend him but all I did was raise my voice ..........
I raised my voice telling him u and ur mum needed to be safe
He got me in an arm twist and cuffed me, I was in a rage.................
I did nothing wrong, in all that anger I bumped his head and he fell flat........
I was charged with assualting an officer and intent to murder...............
The lil boy suffered injuries but was alive.....I wonder till this day what murder???
The cop was alive but gave a tainted account of the incident in court ............
I was brought in to defend myself but all my hope was gone wen dey took U!!!
So sweetheart, I am not evil I never meant to leave ur side but life aint fair.......
U and ur mum keep me going and I promise to get out real soon just for u!!!
Thank you for my father's day gift, ur bible is tucked under my pillow every night...
Love u princess, the candle is burning out but always knw my love would not.....
Daddy xoxoxoxo.