Friday, October 21, 2011

BITTER SWEET

After the tears felt like her second skin.............
The pain in her chest felt like her heartbeat
This was the daily ritual of sadness she went thru...........
Intoxicated with the contents of her bottle............
She staggered to her room and then her bathroom
She switched on her lights and stared back at a stranger
She had lost weight, her hair was gaunt and face pale........
She ran the shower and soaked under its hotness...........
She must have been there for hours, the steam was choking
She walked out of the bathroom and into the room...........
Her memory drifted to the fun times of the last 5 yrs
And jolted at the painful ones causing her hurt............
She decided to get a grip, move on what else could she do?
As she put on some music to ease her mind to rest.......
She took a pen and paper and wrote......................
U win by walking out on me................
U win by every time u called and I answered
U win each time u touched me and I surrendered
U win when I said I love u and U shut me up with a kiss
U win each time u came over and left with a part of me
Never leaving even a scent of urs for me to bask in............
U win telling me I was not ur type else we would have been
U win, U told me Love was not the plan I messed things up
U win as I stare at your wedding invitation........................
U win telling me "friends forever" after 5 years...............
U finally won in the last one year as u planned your exit........
Talking and acting like we were always cool......
Playing off seeing me hurt and craving "US"
But then I realized I was paddling a boat.......
U just needed to get ashore...............
Then her phone rings "hello, long time
Hope you have been good? It was HIM
Just wanted to check if U got the Invitation?"
How dare him, How heartless and blind could he be????
How oblivious to the fact that she loved him????
She replied,  yes I did and he replies ok hope ill see u
This was the last straw and she said I need to see U
He was down the street from her, an open invitation......
The door bell rings and as she opens the door he grabs her
All she had was a towel underneath her robe................
She pulls away and tells him NO, this would only take a min
She hands him an envelope and he reads...................
I am happy U av found happiness as U took mine
But always remember this: 
Each time I smile at U, let it remind U how much I despise u
When I let u hold me, let it remind U how my skin crawls
When u look at me, let my eyes show u the hatred in it
When u see me let it remind you of how weak U are...........
Every time U hear Congrats remember the ring.......
The very ring U said u helped a friend picked............
Only to find me choosing a ring for ur Angel
While me ur Jezebel gets the burden of friendship
Ur worries, fears, doting on u cuz u lack it in ur Angel
But not ur heart when U took mine with no remorse
While U lie to urself and the whole world u love her
But the truth is U are loving for the two of U
Now U want a forever when U ended it all.......
I cant be ur comfort in ur cold pretense
U deserve it, but my Karma hasn't started just yet
Each time u call me friend remember U av a living Enemy
I am not mad or delusional I AM SCORNED......




2 comments:

Myne Whitman said...

Powerful lines! The ending was bittersweet, but real.

Teju said...

Thanks My mentor! Myne