LOVE BITES, LOVE HEALS

She walks staring at the skies, its become a routine...
She walks and is blind to tbe beauty others display
The smiles that reflected the brightness of the sun.........
She wonders, we must not live on the same earth...
I must have communicated with aliens or maybe.......
I have been placed amongst the wrong people...........
How else does she explain bite after bite.......
The scars that fade and gets redesigned????
Why does she have to walk this path again?
No one understands her, no one feels her heart......
She is alone in her world, her reality is a joke to the world
She believes in fairy tales they say........
She must die and be re-birth to experience what she feels
No one matches her desire, it was impossible.............
So she walks in sudden realization, she exists in her world ALONE
She talks but her words bounce back, she feels but her heart is a joke.........
Her defense is she is an incredible actor.......................
She wears her mask and smiles with the world as her insides bleeds
She comes back to an empty house, lifeless with sounds of her tears...............
She looks up and realizes all she has is God..................
When is my time to smile she asks? What sin am I paying for???
Then she hears that scornful laugh and the breeze cold as ice............
No warmth and the night was young, misery had come to stay.........
This is her story, love had bitten hard, her flesh was sore and tired
Now she walks and every corner of the street is a love fest.............
She hears LOVE never bites, it holds u and keeps u warm.......
She says LOVE  hits her to the ground and leaves her bruised.....
This is every broken hearted being's story but.............
WHEN THEY CALL U VICTIM SEEK UR VICTORY BY NEVER GIVING UP ON LOVE.......
:)> Its so beautiful

VICTIM OF COMFORT

Hi blogville, yep trying to get my ness back up ere. So all is good and dandy lately I cant complain hope all is swell at ur ends.
I am sure you would be wondering wats up with my recent posts, I have just been evolving thru a lot of stuff and looking back at situations yet still standing its truly a blessing.
I knw it sounds cliche its everyone's story and I am happy it is, but for me I tend to interprete life's events in different ways. I always said my blog is like a diary of my daily life or inspirations that come as well as share moments i love and hate with y'all to relate to someone out there.
I have learned that ur story is never complete without it designing another's story, we all inspire one another some way, some how it might not be now, it might be years to come, it might be ur kids who would look up to u, destiny has a way of bringing us back in circles.
So this morning I was reading OH and something I read got me thinking, Its difficult for us to be thankful and seek God the way we did when we had minimal comfort to when he blesses us with grandeur comfort.
Isn't it a wonder a fellow who prays night and day, works 24/7 in church lives in what we would term the average life while one who does not even go to church as much lives the celebrity life if u may call it?
I used to wonder myself and Lord knows in ignorance a few times I am like but he does not got to church, bet he does not pray as much but guess what.....his ways, his morals, his characters are reflections of the seeds God wants us to sow.
A man may never go to church not like I am condoning such but his heart is of pure contents, he cares for the unfortunate, he is the boss u want to work for, he is the father any kid wld be proud of, he has made his parents proud, he cant but help a niece or nephew pay for school fees, like 5 siblings got married under his roof...u see where I am going GOD BLESSES HIM cuz he gives and believes in nothing else but giving back. Now a man who is in a one bedroom praying day and night, an elder in church, spirit filled yet he seems to remain in that situation?? God knows wen u r ready for ur blessing, such a man might be rich today and forget where he came from, forget the blessing in giving, the comfort makes him forget the life he once had or the God he cried day and night to. Now when he gives he has a record of who he gives when he gives and reminds God to watch him so he can fill the pockets he pulled out from, such a person is yet to understand why he is where he is.
Trust me I am not a saint this also speaks to me and I am beginning to get clarity about religion, serving God is not in ur acts but in ur heart, the way u treat fellow human beings when no one is watching is what matters most, the contents of your heart, celebration of life and success of others is what elevates you to your own celebration. Sitting down in bitterness over people's achievements would never help, sometimes God blesses certain people in ur life to connect you to your own blessings but unfortunately the devil uses that opportunity for you to hate on that person....... there goes ur chance.
No I am not a pastor, I just speak from daily encounters, interaction with people, relationships and views of people I may never get to even talk to, but their stories have given me hope that I can get to the top as well and be a blessing to people connected to me or not. One is FELA DUROTOYE!
So thot to share this with you all, I am still my crazy bubbling self and yes Ill be posting another blog of my hip pain! I slept on my hip bone and I am in pain :) but God is great and I am blessed to have the lovely people I have in my life who put me in check, bless me and motivate me. 

Smootches.
~TejuMola

JUST IN AWE

Reflecting on my life in the past years and I can say without a doubt its been a journey...................
I sit here wanting to cry but I cant, I am just amazed how time flies............
How yday's worries go by so fast when today creeps in and tomorrow surfaces
I go to bed everyday just like the guy in the news, the woman at the parking lot,
The child by the play ground all reported dead, I am not alert on my surroundings
So its not one lucky break for me, I can walk into the unexpected I am no different..............
But God is just a wonder, wen I sit thru and think of the unforgiveable things I av done?
How can he forgive me, who am I? I sit ere and wonder God still sees a need for me???
I am just in awe, thru everything he sees my beauty like no other........................
I walk a thousand feet from him and be gone forgetting I exist because of him................
When the world I run to shuts me out, I want to remain in that cold and lonely place,
How dare me walk back into his love? his door he never closed, his food he always gave,
His bed he always made for me, I am a queen in his house yet I go out to the world..............
The same recycling act that would keep happening after genrations leave this life...........
I go sleep on the floor where I am not even welcomed,
I hear him weeping in hurt, watching me on the floor when my bed is neatly made in his house
God has been so merciful to me and I do not deserve it, but in grace I am humbled and thankful
I am walking my way back into his love, where its constantly warm and reassuring, where its safe,
Where its love for free, where I can act myself, where I can be understood.................................
God I am thankful for seeing me worthy of life for keeping me still....................
I am enjoying ur presence, I am enjoying the messages u send me thru various means................
I knw I need to prepare for u, I knw I am holding u back from doing what u want to do...............
I clog my heart with impurities and settle for darkness instead of light!!!!!
I am in awe and just want to say thank u for second chances that have become uncountable
Lord thank u, thank u! My heart is in an over flow mode .....................................
I just can put to writing whats on me now, I am just in awe for u are a wonder to me!
I am grateful, i am just an over pour of how much ugliness I av displayed despite ur beauty.............
I give all of me to U!

MONDAY SMILES

Hey y'all
   How's everyone doing? great i suppose, Moi? Just been njoying my last few days to the beginning of another semester, pls dont remind me sigh! The only fun part is in a few months Ill be home in GIDI yeeeeeeeeeeeees! I am so excited I am going home, feeling the love of family and pple who just appreciate you is a blessing.
Its been, not a so bad monday and I am really wishing 4:59pm wld creep up fast.....going to njoy this evening watching a movie or sumtin! alrighty tk kr lurvies and have a great week ahead

Deuces ♥ ♥

DETOX.....

Hey y'all

        Hope u are all great? Moi? I thank God, I am finding my way back to me......I av been kidnapped by technology, Blackberry messenger, TWITTER, Facebook gudness its a total shame. I get up in the morning and the first thing I grab my fone like what madness *lol* I have decided to get a detox from it all and catch up with REAL LIFE. I am on break from school and I plan to read my novels, get on TV shows and have meaningful conversations with friends like I used to.
Its sinking real hard I have totally lost myself to the world of Twitter especially and I cannot even begin to tell how much I wish i cld take back the hands of time in certain siutations but hey guess we learn everyday. It registered today cuz of sumtin in particular and I am glad it did, like an eye opener of how my crazy addiction was getting, imagine my eyes about to pop reading thru every tweet to me or not its called GBEBORUN no need to buttress it, and I hate that. I used to love to get on twitter, say hi, put down inspiring words I get the priviledge to birth and just encourage and appreciate pple..... these days its turned to a war zone, a spy fest and unnecessary drama, so before I become what I hate let me balance my life :)>.
Anyways dont mind me, other pple r on twitter and enjoying the craze and still balance out, guess I am just the kinda chic who wears her heart on her sleeves so u knw everything going on with me, excited, sad, wishing, wanting whatever....I am liberal with my thots but unfortunately i forget we have the judgemental board on there *twitter*.
Anyhoos been enjoying my break from school, one week gone already shoot, 2 more weeks and I am just looking forward to getting it done with and looking forward to my trip to Nigeria....too excited but in a calmer way, was looking forward to seeing a lot of people and hanging out but as time passes by the chord that holds a relationship start to show its strength and how long it wld last for, many have broken and some are holding out cuz I still choose 2, anyways whatever happens I hope to be a blessing and friend to those left in my life, this is not in referral to anyone in particular just thot thru the whole year.....
Well this is me lately, all moduled up like a mess but I am sorting thru and trying to stay on my grind, in general God has been faithful and believe me wen I say I dont knw why he chooses to spare me but I can only prove I am worthy of the several chances I have been given right?. Shout out to the ones who see thru my crazyness, walls and mirage and appreciate the content inside, love u much!
Forgive me, its one of those gibberish of a day and my thots...mwah!
Aight God bless u all.
N.B - Not getting off Twitter but need to learn to do other things without my BB :)>, first step deleting Uber oh yes! Its like crack, there must be MORE 2 LIFE :)>
M♥la

MY TESTIMONY, HIS BLESSING

Hi everyone, its been a long while I knw forgive me :)> never knew school could take so much of one's social life with the added bore from the western world already. So here i am all excited my semester ended yesterday phew! U av no idea, its been one of the most dreaded classes because I HATE calculations guess u noticed my hate in caps, never liked maths in school, I never expect to ace any mathematical paper but my story this semester is God infested period.
So this was my summer class which started JULY - SEPTEMBER, before then was my spring semester which was divided into 2!
Spring II started April - June, anyways each semester as we all students know U r given ur financial aid to start the new semester, we are about 16 in my class, pretty cool course mates and we keep getting enrolled altogether so we had gotten used to one another.
Apparently in my spring semester they made an error wiv my check and gave me double the loan they should av awarded me, now I did not knw that was the case, I just assumed I got lucky and was probably given extra....lilttle did I knw and thats where my hurdle began.
* I got my check cashed it paid for my semester had a few extra cash left, I invested wisely and gave back
* I went thru spring semseter, one of my fave classes and the Prof was just heaven sent.
* As the semester drew to a close, I started to check for my next enrollment which is for summer
* My name never came up???
* I called financial aid office, they always assured me all was fine, I should not worry ok then.......
* The spring semester eventually ended and that same day my school account was flashing a negative
* -$4,464.......ok there has to be a mistake sum where
* Called financial aid office back again and was finally told I had a balance of over 4000 to pay???
* So the question of how, why and what came about and it was broken down to me.....
* I was over paid and dey did not realize it till they were about to enroll me seriously?
* I had spent this money even if it was an error, I felt everything crash right in front of me ( I worry a lot)
* Ok solution  how do I get to enroll for my next class and Ill pay back the money in installments.....
* They told me not until i finished paying off the negative blc of $4. 464 I could not enroll 4 anymore classes.
* So assume I decide to pay 1000 each month which was playing myself it wld av bin hell & high waters
* I would not enroll for summer classes and miss fall too?? every semester is 3 months..........
* I was confused and tried everything but nope I had to pay back, I just wondered how?
* I left my office DEJECTED, I was ANGRY at God like I av never before, I was bleeding inside
* Yep its just school but I had set my mind on a certain time to finish, I had no intentions of a break......
* I got home and It was all dark in my world, I just felt I was tested beyond limit and cld not do it nmore.
* I had a sister talk to me and encourage me but I had no intention of listening, she cant feel my pain I said...
* This was a wknd, It was the most down time for me, sum close pple to my heart tried to be there but......
* I cld not be moved, i cld not pray I just wondered how God gave me the opportunity and den took it??
* I decided ill try and source for the money but everyone was cash trapped, I cld understand that.......
* 2 friends were promising but this made me realize God is a jealous God and he shares his glory wiv NONE
* My sister tried to encourage me, I just did not av any reason to be happy.................
* I had 5 days to enroll for the next class, I was the only one wit this issue God why???
* Invariably Sunday night came no lining in my clouds, I decided Ill fast for 3 days for the heck of it............
* I had given up and just felt I must av been paying for sum Sin little did I know............
* Monday I started the fast, by noon I was abt to pray but found no words, I was broken inside...........
* Broken cuz I felt I had no reason to get these hits from life not wen its all going on smooth *My thinking*
* I just said these words God do what u wish, u knw best I cant even pray *DO UR THANG*
* I went abt my business and did nothing much on monday, went to bed and slept off still sad
* Tuesday continued the fast, I decided to check my school website, and went over my account O_O
* I saw a zero balance, I blinked so hard I thot my eyes wld pop, My heart rate went on a double count
* I rushed to the phone called the financial aid office just incase my account was just being closed
* I spoke to a gentle man who said my account was in good standing, pls this only happens in movies
* I thot to myself even If by sum slim chance places I was expecting funds from came thru...........
* It wld be deposited in my personal account not school account, I was pulsating hard....
* Then the guy told me I was awarded a GRANT, me? I never applied for one, he says are u sure??
* I answered yes, he goes well u were awarded and it cleared ur account, in disbelief I asked
* Do I av to pay back? Silly questions Grants are not paid back he answered NO
* All this while I had 2 days to enroll, When he confirmed I was cleared and got me enrolled
* I sat still and looked up, God embarrassed me and shut me up.
* The grant I was given was not one cent under or over the negative the school said I owed??? it was EXACT
* This happens to Pastors or ministers, this is plain me I said, but when I got over the shock ....... 
* I realised God decided to teach me a lesson of Trusting in him, I was so angry but had no one else but him
* I realised he is the God of suddenly, the one who makes the impossible POSSIBLE
* He made me go thru all that to appreciate leaning on him and not MAN................
* Everyone that offered to do sumtin at the last min could not but that was GOD
* My hope was dashed and at the 99th hour God decided to show my blind self wat he says all the time
* He wld never forsake his own, Just trust him, i was so clouded with disappointment I could not pray
* The great thing about this class is, I never aced a calculation problem but this class...............
* It was intense with financial accounting I had no background of, yet my 10 classes I aced all...........
* I doubted my abilities atimes but when my scores are sent back I am amazed .............
* This is not because calculations are pretty simple, its not because U can apply a formula
* My brain never would process liking calculations but GOD saw me thru this 10 weeks PERIOD
* It had nothing to do with me my strength is in writing and I knw God gave me this class for his glory.
So far this has been my ordeal these past 3 months and God has just been amazing, I was going to share this testimony in church but somehow, sumtin always comes up and I wont make it to church which is why I decided to blog about it and hope it would bless someone who might be going through a tough situation.
It does not have to be school, it could be finances, relationships, whatever just know God just needs u to look up and say *do ur thing*. Fasting sure does help and a contrite heart gets God's ears.
I am grateful for those who stop by and read my blog, its not the fashionable blogs out there but thank u for humbling me as u read my ramblings.
God bless u all
xoxoxo Mola

HIS STORY

Its been a tiring day, all he needed was a cold beer
He was driving down from the station, the sun was setting
It was a beautiful evening looking at the skies but...............
He was in no mood matched with anything nice at the moment
He saw her today....as much as he wanted to cuss he held back
His ex with her fiance driving down odell drive making out in traffic
"She never was a PDA type" he thought, what the hell was that??
The memories came back, he remembered that horrid day......
He had come back from a stake out, his partner got shot
He was trying to deal with the whole debriefing and then......
She called, Let me call u right back babe, No wait she said
This cant wait,  I'm sorry but cant do this nmore Peter!!!
The silence and den the dial tone , she had dropped the call..
He rushed back to debrief and got time off to rush home
He got home, his heart was ripped, the rage came like lightning
He tried to call her cell but she wont pick up!!! Cld his day get any worse??
How cld she walk out and give up on everything? How cld she loose faith?
No, I wont do this he said, he parked his car and had to take a deep breath
Its been 3 years and this rage is just as bad everytime he remembers her.......
He had given his whole life to make sure he did right........
He made sure he was on the right side of the law by becoming a cop
He tried to provide and make everyone happy, even if it broke his back
He might not be the guys on wall street or the white house but dammit.......
"I have a heart and I made sure I gave u all even if it meant I had NOTHING"
He looked up and the sun was almost out of radar, he got himself together
And drove towards Maggie's bar, that cold beer was a necessity at this point
As he pulled into the parking lot, some of his colleagues were leaving the bar
He exchanged pleasantries and he walked in ......................
The bar was all foggy, cigars and the heat all a mix this was Maggies!!!!
He sat at the bar, ordered a cold beer and as he waited to be served............
His eye caught her, in a bar full of  mostly frustated men he thot to himself
What would such a lady be doing in here? ok maybe she was a new employee
But even at that, he just could not comprehend such innocence in the bar.......
She walked to the bar and asked to speak to the manager.................
Just as he wanted to approach her, she was asked to meet the manager!!!
What in the world is going on? He could not shake off this uneasy feeling
Ill hang around he decided!!