The Girl U Thot U Knew!

ALL THINGS BRIGHT

2012-01-26T15:25:00.002-05:00

Hey guys, Its really me again, I know it takes forever these days

Well like i said sometimes all just shuts down but I am ere today

So just signing in to say hi and after reading my girls blog

I am adding some color to my blog no dull looks in 2012.....Cheeks.

TejOsh

LIFE

2012-01-25T12:09:00.000-05:00

I am writing this piece as a result of a situation that happened a few mins ago

I really do not understand how we as human beings function..........

Why is there so much hatred, jealousy and false witnessing?

Being unhappy at another's success, ill feelings towards an innocent soul????

I cannot deal with it, I cannot stand people who dwell in it either,

Life is a struggle for everyone, some get to relax and rest a lil early

But it does not take away from the fact the Life deals with everyone!

I do not understand how friendships fall out because one is doing better

A friend cannot handle the other's success or the Fortunate one is conceited

I wish we knew how we let our emotions destroy good and potential bonds

Not everyone has the maturity to be strong when we obvioulsy should be weak

But one rule I have in life is Celebrate others Friends or Strangers...............

Never short change anyone's happiness or reason for happiness

Celebrating others brings forth ur celebration............

I am grateful for seeing life as a place where you keep dancing

You learn different lessons daily and people always help you learn fast

Characters are never hidden for long, its the ability to discern which is right for U.

The first month of the year is rounding up and I am thankful to God through each day

Its a challenge daily to walk the straight line but thankful for his mercies......

I hope we take some time and decide to be better people this year,

Better parents, lovers, friends to one another and Speaking on friends

Its unfortunate friendship is based on what one can do or get from the other

Hardly are real friendships anymore and the ones that last pple try to be a bridge

For me friendship can span as long as 20 years if both understand.........

Even thru distance our friendship is grounded and have faith in it

Sometimes life happens and we cannot communicate as we do in the past

It does not change things people just make changes and cave into it

As long as your heart is pure, I believe misconceptions would always be cleared

And if no one gives u a chance give yourself a break and focus on being the best.....

Have a blessed week..........

TejOsh

Hello in a Bubble

2012-01-10T10:43:00.004-05:00

Happy New Year everyone, its been forever I KNOW :(

Blogging aint easy especially when somedays you just........

Dont feel up to it, dont want to write some nonsense......

I remain grateful to the ones who take the time to read me.....

This is just a piece of me from time to time............

But I hope everyone is great, had a lovely holiday?

I am grateful I am wonderful, holiday was a blast

Got married over the holidays as well *Smiles*

I am also thankful for life for my grandmum & bruvers

We had a fire outbreak at home, pretty bad but....

For God who is GOD I remain indebted to his majesty...........

All is well, life has been great my sis gave birth as well

Its been a pretty celebration at our end..................

I am just in a thankful mode and its not being cheesy......

I know where I am walking from, the journey thus far.......

2012 has started out beautiful, looking forward to its course

I am in bubble, thats how to explain my state right now.....

My darl sis Jade and I say this a lot but wrongly used den (lol)

I am just in awe of so many wonderful things God has been doing

He celebrated me in a way I was humbled and the world was in AWE

My friends came thru for me so many of them but my 3 angels......

Jadesola, Chika and Abisola My girls rocked and I rock with dem all day

I have to thank Shayo as well for calming me thru any lil chaos (lol)

It was a wonderful day with these damsels and I can only wish them.....

God's blessings in overwhelming measures!!!!! love u guys

And everyone who came through I thank you so much......

My family - My rock and shield always So grateful to you all

My sis Toke even thru distance she kept me sane and ready

Relatives - God sent angels and knights, thank u so much

GOD - I am nothing or no one without you, Indebted forever......

I am happy, celebrated and honoured..................

I am also cheering my contemporaries, friends and youths out there

#OccupyNigeria thank you for your drive, zeal and heart......

We would enjoy this motherland of ours as we should.

God bless u all av a wonderful year ahead

Mwah!!!

TejOsh as Always

2012

2011-11-17T10:17:00.002-05:00

Its been a while I wrote something and just thot to share my thots on ere
Its closer to the end of the year and the beginning of a new one
Its the same cliche we hear 2011 has been gud to me, I hope for a better 2012
True, God has been faithful to a lot of us infact everyone!!! WE ARE STILL ALIVE
But a lot of us carry so many seeds of negativity about to develop in 2012
The sad thing is life is a revolving cycle so what I am trying to say now.........
Has been said in diff forms by both the dead and the living
And not much seems to have changed but seems worse
Live a life void of any negativity!!!!!!!
Dont wait for Dec 31st to confess sins and then thank God for Jan 1st..........
We have all been privilege to see this year while some never made it
So many great things are hanging over our heads but PRIDE has caged us
If you think u are being blessed now and life is good with U, trust me u can get more
No one is a saint I AM FAR from it but a constant walk towards perfection is no harm
Take a moment and sit down, this is not being holy or for righteous ness sake............
It is a breath of clean fresh air when there is peace in ur life
When u are a blessing to others, When God constantly favours U
The good U do for pple does not necessarily have to be paid back by them
The prayers of goodwill following ur good heart & character can NEVER be under estimated
God comes in the form of humans everyday and watch us react to different situations
Life is tough, people are difficult and as individuals we are complex God knows but...............
A choice to be different for good does not hurt!!!!
Stop judging others, Stop hiding under family backgrounds, been raised differently
Stop letting hurt, bitterness, rejection, depression control U...............
Its easier to be human than to be *Un*human very relatable, no one has super powers
We deal with emotions differently does not mean we are not sensitive to one another
Stop feasting on someone's weakness, be more appreciative of people's care towards U
Be thankful God has blessed u with the basic things we all take for granted
Be grateful U have a parent, sibling, aunty or uncle U can be mad at
Be grateful U have a husband or wife who is there to take all of Ur mess
The grass is not greener on the other side not any more...............
True a lot of relationships are over than they started but............
To the ones celebrating 20 yrs, 10 yrs, 5 yrs even a YEAR be thankful.......
Ur success now or later would not have materialized to its full course
If God didn't think ur mate or the blessings of children would bring U success
It is not an easy road but it is a road of experience to hand off to ur children
To help them when they get to that point!!!!
So before 2012 comes again and we get into the cliches of resoultions...........
Let go of all the pain, hurt, person or people in ur heart, mind and checklist
Let ur blessings mature to full term dont get half baked goods............
Also forgiveness is easier when the wrong admits and is graceful enough to do so
Dont take anyone's silence for weakeness or the choice for peace either
Forgive the ones who seek your forgiveness
Seek forgiveness for the ones wronged, dont be too proud
Ur ways cannot be always, be accomodating of others in their ways!!!!
The loud, strong opinionated personality is not attractive..............
Tearing people down, judging people would only delay Ur walk........
Give others a chance to be who they are, too many masks are worn
We are all scared of being who we are cuz we feel judged already
Live and let be.............
Take a moment and take off the joker suit, the mask you wear in the day
Ask for the grace to live a life pleasing to God and loving to man
It is not easy but its better to strive to, so that next year
Much more blessings, celebrations would abound!!!

TejOsh (c) 2011

BITTER SWEET

2011-10-21T13:07:00.006-04:00

After the tears felt like her second skin.............

The pain in her chest felt like her heartbeat

This was the daily ritual of sadness she went thru...........

Intoxicated with the contents of her bottle............

She staggered to her room and then her bathroom

She switched on her lights and stared back at a stranger

She had lost weight, her hair was gaunt and face pale........

She ran the shower and soaked under its hotness...........

She must have been there for hours, the steam was choking

She walked out of the bathroom and into the room...........

Her memory drifted to the fun times of the last 5 yrs

And jolted at the painful ones causing her hurt............

She decided to get a grip, move on what else could she do?

As she put on some music to ease her mind to rest.......

She took a pen and paper and wrote......................

U win by walking out on me................

U win by every time u called and I answered

U win each time u touched me and I surrendered

U win when I said I love u and U shut me up with a kiss

U win each time u came over and left with a part of me

Never leaving even a scent of urs for me to bask in............

U win telling me I was not ur type else we would have been

U win, U told me Love was not the plan I messed things up

U win as I stare at your wedding invitation........................

U win telling me "friends forever" after 5 years...............

U finally won in the last one year as u planned your exit........
Talking and acting like we were always cool......
Playing off seeing me hurt and craving "US"
But then I realized I was paddling a boat.......
U just needed to get ashore...............

Then her phone rings "hello, long time
Hope you have been good? It was HIM
Just wanted to check if U got the Invitation?"

How dare him, How heartless and blind could he be????

How oblivious to the fact that she loved him????

She replied, yes I did and he replies ok hope ill see u

This was the last straw and she said I need to see U

He was down the street from her, an open invitation......

The door bell rings and as she opens the door he grabs her

All she had was a towel underneath her robe................

She pulls away and tells him NO, this would only take a min

She hands him an envelope and he reads...................

I am happy U av found happiness as U took mine

But always remember this:

Each time I smile at U, let it remind U how much I despise u

When I let u hold me, let it remind U how my skin crawls

When u look at me, let my eyes show u the hatred in it

When u see me let it remind you of how weak U are...........

Every time U hear Congrats remember the ring.......
The very ring U said u helped a friend picked............
Only to find me choosing a ring for ur Angel

While me ur Jezebel gets the burden of friendship
Ur worries, fears, doting on u cuz u lack it in ur Angel
But not ur heart when U took mine with no remorse
While U lie to urself and the whole world u love her
But the truth is U are loving for the two of U
Now U want a forever when U ended it all.......
I cant be ur comfort in ur cold pretense
U deserve it, but my Karma hasn't started just yet
Each time u call me friend remember U av a living Enemy
I am not mad or delusional I AM SCORNED......

I DIDN'T KNOW MY OWN STRENGTH!!!!

2011-10-07T10:12:00.001-04:00

2010 was an emotional roller coaster..............
Few knew my state of mind, heart and body
I was confused, depressed, empty and wanting
But I learned to numb each pain slowly
Mask my smile and act like all was good
A turn around came and it always does for me
I get to a point I open my windows and let the birds fly
Holding on to things, people when they dont want to be
Its the worst feeling ever...............
It was a year I was the most uncertain abt who I was
What my heart's content was, What beauty there was?
What sex appeal could be under this whole pile of mess ME
Its strange how the one person u wish saw ur beauty
Made u feel ugly inside out constantly................
But it gets to a point u make a decision to DO U
I had to walk away from people's expectations, thoughts
My heart's fear, my mind and the voices in my head.........
And just fall flat at God's feet, I needed HIS LOVE
Nothing else seemed to heal me but his (God)
I tried to see if I cld fill the pain but it never lasted........
When I gave up and had God take over *sigh*
It was the best thing I ever did, he broke me though.......
I had to go through it, take off all hanging threads of the past
And Dec 2010 I was into my own....................
I just had this new lease on life, attitude and said to myself
My happiness matters, its all about ME and NO ONE ELSE
2011 its been an amazing year so much to thank God for......
Graduated (MBA), turned 30 and never felt sexier and lovely
Been having the best time of my life with someone..............
Who lets me be me, who thrives in my shine................
And who believes life is nothing without me...............
I would say I had a few struggle letting those walls break
Shielding myself from falling again and getting hurt......
But every wall I put up he is patient enough to break thru
And God constantly shows me this is his choice for me
As much as I try to dig my claws else where..............
I am grateful his mercies find me cuz I av been no SAINT
And exactly a year ago someone felt like IT........
Making a mess of 3 yrs of my life but........
Today I own IT and more, no cliches............
N.B - I wld like to S/O to someone ere.......
Ur discipline and un phased attitude about life
Is real admirable cuz U never cave in to life
I wish u all d best and want u to know
U'll always be a fond one in my heart........
Doc
TejOsh

THE WONDERS OF GOD

2011-09-07T13:36:00.003-04:00

I am just thankful for my years on this earth
Many times I have taken the wrong step,
Many times I have made the wrong move,
Many times I have swayed to the wrong music
But God always comes thru...................
I would be graduating in less than a week
2 yrs ago I started my MBA out of a desperate situation
Not knowing If I could do it, If I had the brains for it
Semester after Semester my gift of writing came thru
My grades were awesome and I was filled with awe!!!
One semester almost knocked my dreams out............
I literally gave up on God I had had it with the trust he had in me
The tests he put me thru, the situations meant to build me
But I just gave up and opted to break................
But God in his awesome way watch me crumble
And picked me up piece by piece and put me back together
All by himself wiped my tears, held my face, hugged to himself
And whispered its ok my daughter, watch me and trust me
He changed an impossible situation, what ill call BURIED
And breathe life into it, what was closed became revived......
I was shock to my bones, I hear pastors talk of almost over
And God came thru but experiencing it myself.............
I shared this testimony a while back on my blog
God has been good to me despite my mess.............
I am amazed at his love and belief in me still cuz
I am not perfect, I am a pile of mess but still.....
He treats me with care, bathes me and cleans off the dirt
Everytime I call he is there, every tear he catches............
While millions serve him diligently I get caught up
Serving myself, getting a thumbs up from the Devil
When sapped out of all the interim joy, I realize
The only sustaining joy is God and he never falters..........
I am not a saint nor wake up this morning with a conscience
Everyday God has been awesome to me, even thru selfishness
I am grateful and in total awe, I get a chance to say THANK U
And come sunday Ill put my fingers to rest at UMUC.........
God thank u for finding me worthy despite my ways.......

WANTING

2011-08-26T10:04:00.000-04:00

God understand his children perfectly and the reason why he gives us our NEEDS

But human beings take for granted the feelings of others in various forms
In friendship, relationships, business operations, marriage, parenting!!!!
We cant pre empt God at the same time dont blame God for ur tardiness

Emotionally lazy pple are not Lazy to me they are plain selfish

Life is what it is we take if we can keep getting but what abt the giver?
When the giver is finally sapped out what happens???

This is where the true selfish xters come out at the same time

The givers are to blame cuz they never know when to stop or say NO

In a relationship we might be what we NEED for each other but

The power of WANT shld never be undermined, not even in this day

U can be all I need but If I dont want u I would never realize MY NEED
An important reason God's timing should be respected and appreciated

Every Man wants a wife, home keeper, kids and a home to come to but

Are u the Man she wants?
Every Woman wants a husband with a fat bank account, a socialite (for some)A money bag, father to her kids but are u the woman he wants???
Little things we take for granted are the mighty cracks we watch cave in
It seems trivial at first but A relationship is not about COMFORT its COMPROMISE
I know life hapens, work, kids, making ends meet but if u take a second to think
Where did all the fun go? Now its Morning, breakfast, kids, work, home and Gudnyt
Why wont it be alright to look elsewhere?
It is normal the stars fall out of the eyes after some time together but
Also once in a while indulge in putting those stars back on ur partner

I have this saying....................

"When the landlord mistreats his house, the Tenant becomes a Lord 2"
This goes for both sexes, Never Ignore ur partner's WANTS
What u think is absurd to give to ur partner someone else thinks its a token
No one's life is going to be the same as urs, reactions wld always be different

Some of our wants are misplaced and selfish true but lets be careful

We dont get too wrapped up in our comfort zones to make others uncomfortable

We might NEED each other but do we WANT each other

Think abt that and maybe open urself up a little to giving in to a WANT

May God help us all in our sojourn to find bliss

THE HARD WALK/WORK

2011-08-25T10:40:00.027-04:00

Reading and listening to Celebs

Recently Jada and Will Smith
Got me thinking abt our mindsets
And the models we choose as we forget
Who we really are..................
I am going to talk on something a bit controversial

Love, Committment, Trust, Communication & Connection

I am from this school of thought called weird
I am just a realist, as a young girl I had my life planned

The perfect man, profession, marriage, bank accounts

But as I grew up I began to realize

The burning secrets our parents had

The pain, confusion and frustration our parents musta had

My generation is packed with hypocrites

Who just hurt themselves in guilt

We are also not as spiritual, we run to man stead of God

I am a party I am not blameless but I tend to see things different

Pple go on with battle of the sexes, blaming who for what

Guys go on about machoism, how they are created to rule

Girls are now bold enough to claim the bitch and live by it

In all these is hidden pain, desire, confusion and judgement

When 2 pple are together, it starts like its forever but

We forget life is in phases, love stands the test of time and fails

Expectations birth pressure and disappointments al the time

2 pple in love forget tests wld come and bail when its show time

I hear girls say Men r to take care of them TRUE but

No one and no law states its a man's role

And thats the problem, our man made laws

A man who feels the need to take care of u

Over a guy who wants to? I Wld rather want

I believe in old fashion love, birth out of care and concern

These days its a status, competition to show and display love

The constant do's and dont's have brain washed our thinking

A woman shldnt cook, stay over at a guy's place

A girl shldnt call, should comb thru his place

A guy shldn't spend, or go to expensive places

A guy shld just go for the cookie jar c'mon in this century

When wld this immature thinking stop?????

A guy and a girl meet biased with expectations

Emotions truly make u go out of the ordinary but thats why

They are emotions, people take it for granted which is

The anger both sexes carry and nurse LET IT GO

THEN!!!!!

Hypocrites, Trying to control another person's life

No one's situation can be the same as urs

If u r in a relationship and half of the time u r an investigator

You dont need to be in a relationship

As we grow I would expect us to be truthful to ourselves

Ladies, we lie to ourselves a lot always blame the guys yet

We have a part of the blame, especially those who have gud men

Its hard as it is with all the vultures outside

If u like a tall, sophisticated, rich guy (imperfect world)

Dont date a short guy, brash guy and broke out of pity

Leave him for sumone who wld appreciate him

Dont fill ur loneliness at someone else's happiness

Guys if u just want sex, dont lead a girl on

We latch on only because we believe we can make u see

If u see a lady dont demand a slut and later call dem a bitch

U destroy the self esteem of a lady and make her feel worthless

Laugh at ur sleek ways and complain later in life?????

U break her for the one to build her back WORK HARD

We both destroy one another and it shld stop

The word No shld not be hard to say

Learn 2 Understand it must not be MUTUAL

We fail to see the one who adores us looking at the one we adore

TRUTH

Every relationship has its ups and downs

If u choose to be with sumone u av ur reasons

It doesnt mean loose ur identity or a sense of who u are

It doesnt mean get caught up in ur partner and loose urself

Love fizzles out we do not understand the fire burns out

2 pple cant be a 100 all the time its called a compromise

Its not worth it to keep trying and
The reason (person) is not even bothered

Romance is important we get caught up in life

Only to get a wake up call maybe a tad 2 late

U wld always be attracted to someone its life

Everytime u try to talk to sumone doesnt mean u want sex

Friendships are mistaken for certain expectations

Unfortunately these friendships are
Needed as much as u want them

Ur man or woman cant give u EVERYTHING

Beating urself abt talking to sumone else is setting urself up

When u talk into things it only feeds off ur worry!!!!

How do u explain a marriage where its Good morning

Breakfast, kids, work , home, news and goodnight

A relationship where its just obligatory

To call, say I love u, do nice things

Its just how it works, we must revive the fire

It is happening in many homes but pple r just mute!!!!

U must communicate as much as sum dont like 2

U find a nest then u r the bad one girl/guy

Find out what is missing in ur relationship

Men! majority complain of sex getting boring

Do u ever find out what ur woman wants????

Women are pleasers, men are takers only a few r givers

Sex is an important thing in a relationship

So also is communicating and compromise

Men r not as patient to get the ultimate from their partner

For women u av to make love to her mind

Then u av her body!!!!!!!!!!

Her mind is the door to her sexuality, its d power house

Sometimes we want a fast session get with the mind

Its all give or take, U av to get her relaxed first

People have different sexual orientations

Men be patient enough to teach and

Be nice enough to correct ur partner

Dont shut down or make her feel like a failure

Tell what u want but at the same time Listen to us

I say it all the time a Kiss is a powerful tool for women

A kiss, touch drives the message to the mind

But if as a guy you r kissing her to just get ur Johns attended to

Then u miss the point, both of u have to want attention

Imagine the drive of such desires to be satisfied??? Exactly

Its a complex thing and I hope to get into a discussion

With mature, realistic pple on these topics we shy away from!!!

Take out the do's or dont's ur situation is peculiar to u alone

Never make anyone's experience ur yard stick

Let ur emotions go sometimes enjoy it

There is no rule handing d cake to any sexes

We are all created to learn and discover ourseleves

Dont have ur walls up, let go

Dont cheat urself out of life

Love is beautiful, Loving someone is selfless

Sex is wonderful, a mind connection
With the right one is pure bliss

Friendships are sacred, keep an open door
Dont be too stuck up we r all channels

Attractions are normal, dont get too judgemental

Control is God given, running away only draws u closer
Communication is key, rejection is not murder respect it

Feelings dont have to be mutual, understand that

Never judge anyone if u cant feel their heart

Life is unfair, I try to be as fair as possible

Disrespect is not cute, Maturity is hella sexy!!!!

POISON

2011-08-05T10:07:00.001-04:00

The poison that knocks ur sense of smell.............

Its attractive like a bottle of cologne..............

U love the sweet smell but never tasted it...............

Ur eyes gets locked on the bottle.............

Saying if only, the bottle is so attractive...............

U reach out and its heavier than U thought

Its hypnotic, u r gone into a trance.............

Slowly u get a glass and pour..................

It has no taste thats the deception................

The bitterness would stop you

The sweetness wld consume you

U drink your fill, ur head starts reeling..........

Ur eyes are blurred, ur grip is loose............

This poison swims slowly into ur system............

Taking over, weakening you to a pulp............

Helpless and out of breath..................

Poison wins as it engulfs you..............

No matter how much you detox.............

Its traces never leave, u always taste it..............

Potent is its Power!!! POISON

MY PERSPECTIVE ON A KISS

2011-08-03T09:41:00.008-04:00

Hallos everyone,

I am ere and just felt like blogging on this one topic.................

I was discussing with a friend and some things crossed my mind........

People may argue different but I believe a Kiss is POWERFUL

Its the first step to cooling the flames of attraction............

Its the first action or gesture of true love, friendship.........

How people get crazy from lack of sex, some get from no kiss

There are various ways to express a kiss................

A kiss on the forehead - Appreciative love

A kiss on the cheek - Friends/care

A kiss on the neck - Passion, Desire, deep

A kiss on the lip - Friends, lovers, a bold step

A kiss on the shoulder - Love, passion, appreciating the body

Then we go deeper.........The French Kiss as we all call it.

If you are passionate about a kiss then this would make sense

If you are liplocking and there is too much saliva going X

If you are liplocking and constantly try to catch ur breath or

Your teeth keeps clashing then you are not interested in a kiss...........

A kiss can never be enjoyed with closed lips (many guys do this)

Catching ur breath - u are probably nervous, fast or rough

Good breath is a pathway to enjoy a kiss....

Before you kiss someone there has to be an attraction to enjoy it

A kiss sometimes is as filling as SEX (dont jump me yet) but its true

If you have an attraction and you let all that fire in a kiss trust me!!!!

Recovering from a good kiss takes years, you always touch ur lips

A kiss should be spontaneous, subtle,
A lot of feeling of the lips and passionate

Now this is for someone who wants to enjoy a kiss.............

Man guys are not keen on a kiss we ladies all know this but.....

You can make him love it, instead of initiating U do the initiating

You calm his nerves with a good kiss, the important thing is.....

Feel ur lips dont be in a rush to explore ur mouth.............

Tongue & Saliva are not the tools for kissing its ur LIPS!!!

When lips meet they are meant to be parted not closed..........

Sometimes let the other person kiss you as long as they want

You dont have to be in a hurry to return a kiss let them feel ur lips

A subtle peck on the cheek is felt then a quick smack.............

You remember you got a smack but u touch ur cheek after a subtle one.

A kiss ignites foreplay, the hands are not as magical without a kiss........

The magic of it is why we close our eyes, its an out of body experience

When 2 people have been on the edge, hearts racing, eye contacts...........

Desire builds up, its different when its Love, Lust or Pure Chemistry..........

Sometimes a kiss breaks the ice, its no gun to ur head for sex................

A kiss between people with Pure Chemistry is taunting till it happens........

Friendship builds from such or relationships break................

Sometimes a kiss should be left at a kiss, an excuse for sex destroys it all

A kiss with people in love is ever refreshing, most times its not french

Its always the lips and thats what keeps it alive, French kissing all day NOPE

I know people say when u are married for years ................

One should be able to kiss with morning breath well.................

Lets be real, u want to keep swallowing bad breath and germs from another

Keep it clean dont fall for the myths that leave u confused..................

You cant have ur mouth unbrushed all day .................

And want to stick and swallow my tongue and expect a vis a vis................

People do it and its great but what is wrong in clean mouth?

Reason why I said Lips are the essential with a KISS,

U wake up in the morning mouth full of Saliva and u want a french kiss

Thats not love, lets not base frivolous ideas on love....................

Anyways b4 I digress, LUST is always the wild thing................

Kissing without even remembering how the lips felt,

Biting, clashing teeth, bursted lips,well crazy passion once in a while

But sometimes 2 people in lust dont even want to kiss..............

It makes no sense, its all about the body but.............

The day a kiss happens know gradually a sense of care has crept in..........

A kiss is powerful, its passionate, its a slow poison that streams in ur blood

Enjoy a kiss better with ur lips than ur tongue, part ur lips ................

If u cant catch ur breath, hold each other relax and................

Let ur lips take you to paradise.................

So for the first time i discussed something this bold on my blog............

I just felt to share u definitely know its a passion I have :)

I do understand a lot of people might not agree but hey try it.............

Kiss slowly and dont be in a rush to stop ur lips from feeling!!!

(c)TejOsh 2011

A SHAKE AROUND

2011-07-26T12:16:00.002-04:00

Hey guys was up?
I really dont have a lot to say today other than I am grateful to be alive,

Its been an amazing experience each day, understanding daily that.....

Its all in his time, his hands and his place!!! GOD

School is about to be over! phew! Finally I get this done

A lot of us are just tired of the class and frankly who wldnt?
August is here and dat just means DECEMBER is knocking............
Excited and a lot of nerves too :) but its all worth it................
Ill be updating u on every detail for sure but til then stay tuned................
Doing nothing fun at the moment trying to lay low and keep watch..........

Anyways b4 I go on with a lot of nothing, wish u guys a lovely day..........

Been learning a lot about depending on people and boy am I glad..........
I never thrive on groups I do me and it works out better.................
Anyways it is what it is and I would let Sunday's sermon stick.............

Jer 17: 5-8 Its been my watch word and I know God is reminding me

Me or nothing child.............

Alrighty y'all av a beautiful time doing good

PAPA O'JAFOR

2011-07-22T10:56:00.004-04:00

Its been a great week its the 22nd of July.....
I can tell you its been great

Its been a while I had a week of positivity in my life!!!!!

So last weekend I was just in this not 2 cool place.......

Sunday could not make it to church and thought 2 myself really??

When would you get out of this cirlce you are roped in.........

This week I determine I am out then I am sunk in again...........

Prayed Sunday night after submitting my assignment, crawled into bed

Woke up monday and decided Ill go for a Program at church......

RCCG Power Explosion at Bowie, a bright start to my day.........

Then the day came along and I became tired, having second thoughts

But the more I looked for a reason not to go, I told myself I would......

Even my mum almost got in my way but I chose to go cuz to me.....

That was the devil trying to make me miss a blessing!

So I heard Pastor Ayo was preaching monday night.........

I was baised about him never heard him preach and was not keen on him

I heard Pastor Ashimolowo was going to be there so was contemplating

Going on Tuesday when Pastor Ashimolowo wld preach but.............

GOD IS A WONDER

My friend came to pick me against all odds tried saying I was running late

Yet he insisted he wld wait at my house, eventually I said Teju gotta go......

I got to church had Minister Ernest lead us to worship GREAT voice

Announcements and then Papa as they called him came in .......

I was like ok lets see how this goes............................

As he took the mic and started speaking, I knew why the devil tried!

I pratically teared down at every second thru the service MY GOD!!!

I was rushing home to go watch Basket Ball Wives & Single Ladies

I would have missed God's visit to me personally that day........

It was a powerfilled night, I tell you I was super blessed............

God reminded me of my role and why he placed me there........

Firstborn children are given a token from God............

A token of BIRTHRIGHT

A token of DOUBLE PORTION

And for this Pastor Ayo said for we first borns............

We need to praise God like a mad man

We need to give to God like a crazy being

Pastor Ayo blessed that night not preached as he said............

I felt so humble and honoured God had me in mind Monday

Its friday today and I am glad how my week went............

I am walking back into his fold as he always opens his doors

Always digging me out of the rubbles and washing me clean

God has been good to me so good I cant but be thankful......

Thats how my week went and I hope the weekend wld be greater

God bless and have a fab weekend.

TejOsh

GOD's AWESOMENESS

2011-07-08T10:22:00.007-04:00

Hi everyone,

I hope you are all doing great at the place/point you are in life right now or making a move to get to that place.
I have been NOT busy but just occupied with all sorta stuff and as usual the devil rears its head.
Its the 2nd half of the year and its amazing how I look back and remember the beginning of this year.................
Filled with so much hope, fire and determination but den slowly descend the stairs ahead........
For about 2 months been trying to make sense of this place I am in,
It feels familiar but then its blurry, I am not happy, not entirely sad, just can't place my hand on the feeling hmmm!
The devil knows where to get us best, he knows my sinking bait (FINANCES)
Once it starts that way every other things seems to go wrong.................
So ere I was in a circle of confusion and pushing thru this wind of self pity.....
I made a note I am going back to praying more, I need to fast but guess what??
This has been what I want to do!!! for sum reason not achieved it ............
Thinking if i have this, that would fall into place but nothing falls into place.....
2 days ago I was with my Ghanian girlfriend and she told me...................
Where u are I av been and thats why I understand better hmmm!
She encouraged me and I tried to remain positive but another bump!!!
In all of this I am grateful for my family and best friend/soulmate....
I think he gets tired of my worrisome self but he holds my hand thru........
And at that point when I look at where I am coming from and.......
Look at where I am now, I feel so guilty I have not appreciated God enough......
I always want things to be perfect, on time and this is the area my test comes.....
God never lets it happen when I want it, I am learning to trust him totally
I am too focused on this one thing I want that I dont have .................
This makes me oblivious of the many little things he is changing arnd me
Setting me up for a bigger future but in my NOW I forget my NEXT
So in an attitude of thanksgiving I want to thank the almighty for:
LIFE, HEALTH, FAVOUR, MERCY, LOVE, HOPE, and......
For an amazing partner who sees the best in me always!
God bless u all and thank u for reading.....

~TejOsh

WO R* D* S

2011-06-15T10:08:00.002-04:00

Words are so powerful, we have no idea how much it builds or destroys.....

Words r never forgotten, they ring an alarm in our minds, hearts
Words are worn like a badge of honor or a garment of shame.........
When we speak lets make sure we r encouraging, blessing and lifting others up
Dont get me wrong, u might be very unabashed with ur words................
Quick to say it like it is but..........................
Is it worth it if ur words damage another's soul?
Is it worth it when ur words build walls between people that dont even knw each other
Is it worth it when ur words defame a character that calls u friend?
Is it worth is when ur words defame a character u never had an encounter with?
Is it worth it to use entrusted secrets as insults to another?
Watch ur words more importantly watch urself, dont get lost in ur words
A potent tongue is worse than a sharp knife, confidence is not arrogance
A smile or warm gesture is not life threatening, encouraging effort goes a long way.....
Dont be quick to judge the front without looking at the back...........
U hardly knw anyone's story or pain, dont be too quick to roll ur eyes.......
Sum pple get it the first time, sum get it the 2nd while sum get it much later
It does not make them less worthy of support or praise..................
Its not who starts but its who can GO THRU not even who lasts anymore.....
Dont judge anyone by ur life, ur struggle or ur success judge dem on theirs
If u can walk their walk, take their hits and pray their prayer till they succeded
Only then can u let ur tongue speak at will but till then WATCH UR WORDS......
Its tru pple may not remember what u said and only remember how u made dem feel
But there are a few U see that remember ur words and never forget that feeling they had
Unfortunately pple who speak vile never remember how much they said..........
Life does not end now, the one U cast off might be the one U need to come to............
God bless u as u start to bless others....
N.B - Mothers speak positivity into ur kids, schools/peers are real brutal these days kids need their family to speak love into their lives
N.B - Wives let our words be like a soothng balm unto our men,
Silence is not weakness but a weapon if used right
N.B - Husbands we love to hear u, we love to be encouraged
thru ur words, its the fire that keeps us going........
Try it for a week, bless pple and encourage them thru ur words
Ull see how amazing ur week goes,
WORDS ARE SEEDS WE SOW INTO LIVES WHEN WE SPEAK IT.
(C) Tejosh 2011

MY TIME

2011-06-01T12:23:00.002-04:00

Happy New month, life has just been happening and I av not been able to keep up with y'all but I am here today :).
Hope the year 2011 has been good so far? Incase you have had a rough first few months, start the remaining part of the year and make a decision to live for urself.
I am here today remembering where I was last year..........................
Hope lost, self worth gone, and just lost in my person trying to be another.......
I hid my worry for a bit but God saw it all, sometimes i questioned him......
Why me? whats that SIN causing me all this, I heard my echoes back at me.......
I tried to numb all these pain, anger and hurt wondering how I landed deep in...
School was in session , like I said Life would happen, the clock did not stop ticking
My heart did not stop beating but my existence was like a bubble and a burst.....
2010 was that year where my valley caved me in and loved me locked in......
I tried so hard to burst out, dug holes but they closed back up...........
Tired out my strength, till I lay lifeless and my tears was all that LIVED
God stretched his hand and shook me back to life rigorously.............
I faced myself, looked at my muddy feet, dusty hands and unpretty self..........
All my struggle to get out, God created a path for me to walk.............
Into the sunshine and my journey to brighter days begun..............
December 2010 marked the awakening to my future.............
2011 has been a promising, fulfilling and humbling ride..............
I used to walk on roads thru the shine and storm, I paddled the rivers.......
Today I am chaffeured in the best of rides.................
I am carried like a princess I never knew I was cuz I slaved my heart....
I feel like a Princess but I am told I am "THE QUEEN"..............
So how then do I not smile, How can you question my admiration?
How can you make me think what I feel is nothing new?
You might not understand my feelings, U never felt my former
God took me thru all I did cuz only me could survive it.........
I may not have been amongst the first to live 'THIS LIFE'..........
I certainly would be amongst those that would live it forever.............
When u undertsand my pain then u can make sense of my praise............
Until then, let me bask in my time and be grateful to GOD.............

Tejosh

HAPPY NEW MONTH

2011-05-01T08:33:00.005-04:00

Hiya, dusting the cobwebs lol, so sorry guys it is what it is SCHOOOOOOL and well sum uninspiring times :(. How are you all and hope everything is going swell for your families?
Happy New month , its amazing to be alive and it would be great if we make use of this precious gift given to us, LIFE.
I am ere, God has been faithful as always in my family, its been some rocky ride but like my dad told me today, "u go thru all u do to help shape ur tomorrow" indeed he is right.
Everytime I go thru anything I feel God has a young girl going to seek my expertise on stuff or even friends and hopefully how I make it thru now would help later.
So what else is going on with me.hmmm! ......................
Finally I think my house is all together now, the only thing missing is my dinning table, I moved a month ago to my own place wen the lil sis got married and moved to ATL...
My mum has been on my tail *sigh* she is coming next week (wish me luck) hahaha.
My sis is around from the ATL and the hubby comes upper week hahahaha talk of a family affair, but its all good enjoy the love for the days I wont have it (winter).
I am excited abt upper week phew! God has just been amazing.......................
When ur heart has no evil Intentions believe me God works in ur favour.........
2010 was just disastrous but I kept a smile thru but 2011 BEAUTIFUL BLISS
It cant be described but I promise in my next post ill give u a glimpse to it all.......
Alrighty have to run and finish my assignment twas fun hanging out again........
Thank you all who keep coning ere to read my blog, might not be the hip blog like others out there but my ability to share me unabashed is what I love most about writing.
Mwah av a swell month y'all.............
Teju~Mola.

THE BIG ONE - HAPPY BDAY TEJ

2011-04-11T19:57:00.006-04:00

My bday was on April 5th and it was just an awesome day I tell ya,
Family, friends, pple all well wishers all over BBM, Twitter, facebook.....
I was floored, I was humbled I was blessed, it was too much too handle.....
The day before I got so emotional just thankful for another year
Looked thru last year and the past 29 yrs and just grateful.......
Yup I turned 30, the age I feel awesome, beautiful, loving me as a woman
It just felt all too good and God has blessed me with Family, Friends & Love
I am at this point where I can say Life wld hit me but I wld hit back better.......
I have seen enough thru 29 yrs to knw God or nothing and I choose God......
My bday morning started with me just praying, I was talking to my sis from abt 11pm
12 am the calls started, gosh I teared up it was just Love I could not but bask in.....
BBM was all too humbling, its kinda of a ritual we all celebrate one another but for me
Seeing my pictures on pples's profile and the joy they had doing it!!! GRATITUDE
If there was any other day I doubted how much I meant to anyone......
APRIL 5th 2011 I felt God celebrate me, my family, friends and loved ones
I told no one at work so was not off, got some cake and drinks for them at the office
All surprised but I just felt to celebrate me with everyone I came across........
My girl Itunu came from Atlanta to spend the week with me, God bless her.......
One of the few guest I loooove having over, My sister & her husband got me Edible arrangements,
I had dreamt of it for so long and wen the delivery man came in.......
I ll put up pictures of all I got not a truck load but from those that matter in my world
Their thots and just their constant love and being hard on me wen they needed to
My lovely sis from another mum Jade & Bff (Sagz) sent me a lovely card & wallet
All d way from Dublin it touched me and the funny thing is I NEED A WALLET
My sis has been on my neck abt that, she got herself this lovely coach wallet,
The trendy ones out now and I seemed to just not get the kind I wanted but......
Dupsy(Jade) another fashionista like my sis Toke are just so with it...Thanks!
Itunu got me a lovely Silver WristWatch and had the kitchen in a storm that evening
It was a wonderful day and I feel very blessed.
The presents that topped all, God gave me a present I asked him for last year.......
And from the very one, lets just say i got an extra piece of finger accessory :)>
It was indeed a lovely day and I am grateful to all u wonderful pple who made it so.....
I am grateful to God for his many mercies and his wonderful blessings!!!

THANKFUL

2011-03-30T15:03:00.003-04:00

Its been an amazing first few months of the year 2011, I started on a great course........

Spending more time with God, of course we get so confident and d devil rears its head

I have not blogged in a while and I av been trying to get back to it but................

School jut demoralized any social activity for me well not so much TWITTER......

Twitter I get to be so so random maybe thats why I spend time there and detox

God has been so amazing to me and my family, I decided to blog today to say........

Thank u to the almighty, I cant pray enuf not even sure I am doing a gud job at that

but sharing with pple who might read for me is another way of testifying of his gudness

Last year Dec my lil sis got married to her friend and they are enjoying marital bliss......

Making God the cornerstone of their home, so happy for them.

Me!!! well last year was def hilarious, I ended a relationship of 3 yrs full of just AIR

I put in all and got nothing, I walked away proud and thankful God had my back

Families had met but I was not going to manage being happy or accept a mediocre of LOVE

I guess pple expected me to be broken but truthfully I av never been WHOLE as I feel now

Thankful to my family for being there and to God for letting me understand without him............

Happiness can only last for a while!

Fastforward I am living a beautiful and stress free life, knowing God more and loving life

I celebrate my bday in a few days and surrounded by friends, good support and family........

I have so much to share but after my bday definitely, school has been great as well its all God

Yes, I am finally with my friend who I have turned down for 8 yrs even though we had it 4 each other

He has been amazing and I feel like really was I hypnotized? This is no cliche, its not all rosy 24/7

but........................................................

Ill walk the thorns of life with him because he wld carry me and hurt his feet than me hurt mine

He wld cater to me and love on me because he has the fear of God,

I have seen him love others in the past and it never changed him, I was the one who advised him then

So now I get to be the number one lady in his kingdom and its blissful!

I av placed "US" at the feet of God and I knw each day God is blessing us........

He comes over in a few weeks and all I can say is God U R AMAZING................

More to come but not without saying this.............

I share a lot on ere cuz I might be living the same life as another and might help or encourage them

To share God's gudness, my highs and lows and most of all to do what I love to do................

WRITE!

TejuMola~

THE WIFE

2011-02-12T13:22:00.001-05:00

The lil girl u admired back then,
The lady u impressed afterwards……
Now the woman who makes ur home
She is honoured with this role by God
U the husband are the completion of God’s plan……..
She is the one who gives ur life a balance
She is the one who minimizes the chaos around u
She is the one who takes the responsibility for u
She is the one who takes over from ur mother
She is the one who gives back the seed u gave …….
She bears ur child and brings respect to ur home
She is the one who supports u thru…….
She is the one who kneels on ur behalf
She is the one whose prayers are a halo over U
She is the light in ur world but chooses to be the shadow
She is never scared to let u shine……….
She is content with loving u and making you happy
She protects her own and guards her home possessively
She may not know it all but she is willing to learn………
She listens even when she should talk……..
She prays when she should fight……..
She loves when she should hate…..
She never denies u herself………
She holds on with all she has, when she should give up……
She protects ur name when she should smear it………
She loses herself in finding you……..
She is Woman, mother, friend, sister, daughter…….
More importantly she is………
WIFE
P.S – Not downplaying the roles of our men, the husbands/fathers are the reasons we are mothers and wives. So not intended to bash Man, inspiration came to write this, so my wonderful men I shall return the favour, also unfortunately as hard as it is the truth is some do not honour this title as God has ordained. To all the good wives God bless u and teach u PATIENCE, WISDOM and bless u always!

LOVING IT

2011-02-12T11:04:00.000-05:00

The fresh taste of victory, the leap of faith and falling with no fear.................
The strength it has, the hope it brings and the stance it takes.........
The warmth it gives, the flames it ignites and the coolness thereafter.........
The promise of a tomorrow, the assurance of today and trust in the future.............
The calmness of it all, how effortless and peaceful it comes...........
The beauty it beholds, the sacredness and purity it commands..........
I am loving it, I am living it and I am never leaving it.............

PEEK-A-BOO

2011-02-12T10:45:00.006-05:00

Hiya,
I really av not been a gud girl with this blog updates :) Phew!!! so much to do, school, work and all imagine wen the kids and husband come?
Its the month of love February and with just a few days to vals day some are getting into the hype and some are just not with it..........
Ur girl is just a lover all day anytime so Feb 14 for me is go out and enjoy urself if u believe in it if not be mute and stop running other people's fun down..........
Lastly for those who seek personal interests on such day oh well, lets see how far u go..........
I have been having a beautiful time, taking each day as it comes and loving every moment of it.................
I look back and boy! has God been amazing or what? I cant even believe it sometimes................
I am so blessed with all I need and the wants I know God is taking them according to priority...............
As usual same old life, people would be people, I laugh at how these social networks have evolved......
People have become so mean, tactless and fake, no decorum whatsoever, no fun, no realness anymore
Every thing u do or say is being scrutinized once someone has a place to feast his or her frustrations...........
Oh! well I just sit, read and laugh its funny I do not think I av made any billions yet....................
So having sumone getting all mad at me makes no sense but then again the DEVIL IS SURE REAL.............
Anyways enough with that, I just hope we all realize we are all human prone to mistakes open to LOVE.
Going ahead with my next update .....................

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 2011

2011-01-10T16:23:00.000-05:00

Halooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooos, I am back and solid, 2011 here I am
Its great to be here my lovelies, it was an amazing end to 2010 and a lovely start to 2011
So I went home (Naija) for the holidays oh! my wish I did not have to come back...........
It was just too much fun, so much my body is still clocking naija time hahaha
There is so much to say that I have to wait for time to permit, :) but amazing thing believe me!
God has been so faithful is all I can say, he gave me too much to be thankful for......................
My sis wedding was awesome, God was just the chairman of the occassion..................
We had so much fun dancing and just goofing around, I had fun coordinating the event..............
Congrats Mr & Mrs Adetunji!!!!!!!!
I had fun seeing so many lovely people, I saw my girls, Chika, O.y, der lovely men as well......
Glad my girls r with wonderful men who adore them, Saw my buddy Izzo CEO Oluwafemi clothing
Had fun hanging with my BFF d dashing sagz, his december is about to happen nxt wknd!!!!
Gosh! it was great seeing everyone, I really did not want to leave....................
I also had the best xmas with the Audifferens, and they hosted us to a lovely holiday treat........
My December 2 Remember I tell ya!!!!!
Not too much to give away but soon y'al watch out.

GOD'S LOVE

2010-11-14T05:22:00.002-05:00

http://www.facebook.com/?page=1&sk=messages&tid=1685987837388#!/video/video.php?v=147604661937210&comments

PLEASE WATCH THIS VIDEO
It just humbled me and gave me a graphic description of what God goes thru to save us from ourselves, how much the devil teases us with what we think are the goodness of life.
It actually brought me to tears to see all we need is to get on our knees and just go before God and he wld fight our battles for us.
God is awesome beyond words and I am truly grateful for the gift of life and a chance to right every wrong.....

NEWNESS

2010-11-13T18:08:00.002-05:00

Hey y'all,
How av u guys been? its been a pretty cool saturday for me......
I woke up and started getting myself prepped for my Naija trip.....
Wow! so excited, i need a break from this madness of work/school
I am glad I am going to see my family, friends and I am loving the unknown........
My sister's wedding is going to be fun I can tell and I am just excited for her......
I am thrilled for my parents haha at least they are getting rid of us in bits now.......
Its been a roller coaster 2 weeks but I am glad clarity is setting in ..........
I look forward to a fresh start, I want to be in that place God has set apart 4 me......
It gets better lifes challenges teaches me each day and gets me closer to God.....
So much to say, 4 now Ill nurse it in and wait for God to unfold this scenes 2 come
I need some excitement in my life though, feel like a big bore these days.......
I think I have been so tied up into other pple's well being I forgot about me......
So its time for change 2011 definitely aint coming cheap, I tell ya......
The wisdom of our elders we rid off sumtimes but if we take a min to ponder!!!!!
They definitely know a lot of what they say and experience sure is d best teacher........
Anyways not much to write, about to skype with my sis Jade catch up on stuff :)
Alrighty its been fun back ere and special shout out to my girls.....................
Gretel, Tisha, Myne, Kabiyesi and Cheeks for always stopping by......
Adios mwah!

ANGER!!!!

2010-11-11T16:16:00.005-05:00

I am angry or maybe I was angry, but I have never birth so much venom......
I was raged, I felt my pressure go up, my blood heated..................
I was becoming that monster, that one that comes thru wen I feel pained/betrayed........
Everyone said I should forget it, let it go, keep my cool I struggled to for dayzzzz
Then the ticker went off, I could not take it I had to explode, i had to vent........
I felt better, I had lifted all I nursed around a while out but...................
I realize my anger is raw and damaging wen I feel slighted!!!!
Dear God, I held on for a bit longer but now I truly understand ur words......
Let not the sun go down on ur anger, revenge is mine says the lord.......
The human mind is incapable of controlling its rage unless we release it......
Its just hard atimes, I take a lot and can allow continuous push but.......
When my back is against the wall, a slight brush........
I muster all the times I av been pushed and push back......
My push dents a wall, I try really try not to go there, I wear a mask ........
A constant smile, vulnerable attitude which often looks weakening......
Its the only mirage to mask this ugly vice I av TEMPER........
I have not damaged anything, I av not done do Undoable but.......
I wish I didint get bruised easy or hurt so deep then nothing would matter.........
I cant change life, I can change how I see it and my reaction to it..........
Anger eats at you from every direction, ur mind is blurred, ur heart is heavy,
Ur thinking is irrational, its no wonder the good lord asks for us to tame it.......
I am not proud of how bad it can get when I feel hurt......
Its worse off when the ones who offend u r unapologetic.......
I read a friend's blog on Unforgiveness and sumtin struck a chord....
Its not like we dont want to forgive but it feels like giving power to d offender......
The lord Jesus christ took more and for me so how much more I????
I hope I get closure from today's doing but..........
I av chosen to go back home today and get on my knees and talk to God......
I av been told my temper might mar me, but its not a place I want to be........
I feel good writing this and I am grateful for my parents talking to me thru this......
My Dad said "U dont throw the baby out with the bath water"
My Mum said "Patience is a virtue"
I would take the words of my elders and engrave them on my heart........
The world is not worth negative energy if I choose to smile thru it...........
God bless u all have a gud evening!!

MY OTHER BLOG

2010-11-08T11:54:00.001-05:00

http://teyjuh2.blogspot.com/

Hope I get to finish with school and all, but this is just me trying to bring fictional xters to life in short day dreams inspired by everyday people. Hope u enjoy it, read bottoms up...thanx.

DADDY'S PRINCESS

2010-11-01T16:19:00.012-04:00

The floor was cold, the bars were colder......

It was dark, it was all too familiar its been 2 yrs

The lights went out, the whispers were like crickets

The night was long and lonely but his mind was blurred................
He felt the heat of moist trickle down his face.....

The knot in his chest tightened as he tried to breathe

He reached under his pillow for his flash light........
He pulled out her picture from his bible and there she was
His lil angel, her smile was beautiful and harmless....
He thot to himself...how do I make her understand?
What do I tell her, whats she been told?
Her father was sent to prison for trying to keep her alive!
So he decided to write and hoped one day soon enough
He would make her understand how love can make u do wrong......
DEAR LILY,
I loved you from the day I was told you were a seed growing
I loved the woman who carried you day in day out..........
I loved her more as she grew heavier and all swollen with you......
I smiled to the future and promised to bring heaven on earth to you both
Days turned to weeks and then to months, Ur mother birthed you.......
As I carried ur little being in my hands, I neva pictured a better moment.......
I thanked God for honouring me to watch over you here on earth...........
I thanked ur mum for the strength and courage to carry you all thru.........
I cannot be there for you now, an error in judgement brings this pain
As we journeyed home that day, thru the rain I had only one priority.....
To get my baby girl home safe to some warmth and ur mum to rest......
We approached an intersection but my focus was on you and ur mum
I ran a red light and hit a pedestrian, I felt the impact and rushed out......
A teenage boy was flat down bleeding from the side............
I was trying to pull over on the side of the road wen a cop showed up!!!
He saw me *escaping* but as I tried to explain my intentions it got heated......
He said I threatend him but all I did was raise my voice ..........
I raised my voice telling him u and ur mum needed to be safe
He got me in an arm twist and cuffed me, I was in a rage.................
I did nothing wrong, in all that anger I bumped his head and he fell flat........
I was charged with assualting an officer and intent to murder...............
The lil boy suffered injuries but was alive.....I wonder till this day what murder???
The cop was alive but gave a tainted account of the incident in court ............
I was brought in to defend myself but all my hope was gone wen dey took U!!!
So sweetheart, I am not evil I never meant to leave ur side but life aint fair.......
U and ur mum keep me going and I promise to get out real soon just for u!!!
Thank you for my father's day gift, ur bible is tucked under my pillow every night...
Love u princess, the candle is burning out but always knw my love would not.....
Daddy xoxoxoxo.

LOVE BITES, LOVE HEALS

2010-10-31T23:01:00.006-04:00

She walks staring at the skies, its become a routine...
She walks and is blind to tbe beauty others display
The smiles that reflected the brightness of the sun.........
She wonders, we must not live on the same earth...
I must have communicated with aliens or maybe.......
I have been placed amongst the wrong people...........
How else does she explain bite after bite.......
The scars that fade and gets redesigned????
Why does she have to walk this path again?
No one understands her, no one feels her heart......
She is alone in her world, her reality is a joke to the world
She believes in fairy tales they say........
She must die and be re-birth to experience what she feels
No one matches her desire, it was impossible.............
So she walks in sudden realization, she exists in her world ALONE
She talks but her words bounce back, she feels but her heart is a joke.........
Her defense is she is an incredible actor.......................
She wears her mask and smiles with the world as her insides bleeds
She comes back to an empty house, lifeless with sounds of her tears...............
She looks up and realizes all she has is God..................
When is my time to smile she asks? What sin am I paying for???
Then she hears that scornful laugh and the breeze cold as ice............
No warmth and the night was young, misery had come to stay.........
This is her story, love had bitten hard, her flesh was sore and tired
Now she walks and every corner of the street is a love fest.............
She hears LOVE never bites, it holds u and keeps u warm.......
She says LOVE hits her to the ground and leaves her bruised.....
This is every broken hearted being's story but.............
WHEN THEY CALL U VICTIM SEEK UR VICTORY BY NEVER GIVING UP ON LOVE.......
:)> Its so beautiful

VICTIM OF COMFORT

2010-10-20T16:25:00.012-04:00

Hi blogville, yep trying to get my ness back up ere. So all is good and dandy lately I cant complain hope all is swell at ur ends.
I am sure you would be wondering wats up with my recent posts, I have just been evolving thru a lot of stuff and looking back at situations yet still standing its truly a blessing.
I knw it sounds cliche its everyone's story and I am happy it is, but for me I tend to interprete life's events in different ways. I always said my blog is like a diary of my daily life or inspirations that come as well as share moments i love and hate with y'all to relate to someone out there.
I have learned that ur story is never complete without it designing another's story, we all inspire one another some way, some how it might not be now, it might be years to come, it might be ur kids who would look up to u, destiny has a way of bringing us back in circles.
So this morning I was reading OH and something I read got me thinking, Its difficult for us to be thankful and seek God the way we did when we had minimal comfort to when he blesses us with grandeur comfort.
Isn't it a wonder a fellow who prays night and day, works 24/7 in church lives in what we would term the average life while one who does not even go to church as much lives the celebrity life if u may call it?
I used to wonder myself and Lord knows in ignorance a few times I am like but he does not got to church, bet he does not pray as much but guess what.....his ways, his morals, his characters are reflections of the seeds God wants us to sow.
A man may never go to church not like I am condoning such but his heart is of pure contents, he cares for the unfortunate, he is the boss u want to work for, he is the father any kid wld be proud of, he has made his parents proud, he cant but help a niece or nephew pay for school fees, like 5 siblings got married under his roof...u see where I am going GOD BLESSES HIM cuz he gives and believes in nothing else but giving back. Now a man who is in a one bedroom praying day and night, an elder in church, spirit filled yet he seems to remain in that situation?? God knows wen u r ready for ur blessing, such a man might be rich today and forget where he came from, forget the blessing in giving, the comfort makes him forget the life he once had or the God he cried day and night to. Now when he gives he has a record of who he gives when he gives and reminds God to watch him so he can fill the pockets he pulled out from, such a person is yet to understand why he is where he is.
Trust me I am not a saint this also speaks to me and I am beginning to get clarity about religion, serving God is not in ur acts but in ur heart, the way u treat fellow human beings when no one is watching is what matters most, the contents of your heart, celebration of life and success of others is what elevates you to your own celebration. Sitting down in bitterness over people's achievements would never help, sometimes God blesses certain people in ur life to connect you to your own blessings but unfortunately the devil uses that opportunity for you to hate on that person....... there goes ur chance.
No I am not a pastor, I just speak from daily encounters, interaction with people, relationships and views of people I may never get to even talk to, but their stories have given me hope that I can get to the top as well and be a blessing to people connected to me or not. One is FELA DUROTOYE!
So thot to share this with you all, I am still my crazy bubbling self and yes Ill be posting another blog of my hip pain! I slept on my hip bone and I am in pain :) but God is great and I am blessed to have the lovely people I have in my life who put me in check, bless me and motivate me.

Smootches.
~TejuMola

JUST IN AWE

2010-10-17T01:48:00.005-04:00

Reflecting on my life in the past years and I can say without a doubt its been a journey...................
I sit here wanting to cry but I cant, I am just amazed how time flies............
How yday's worries go by so fast when today creeps in and tomorrow surfaces
I go to bed everyday just like the guy in the news, the woman at the parking lot,
The child by the play ground all reported dead, I am not alert on my surroundings
So its not one lucky break for me, I can walk into the unexpected I am no different..............
But God is just a wonder, wen I sit thru and think of the unforgiveable things I av done?
How can he forgive me, who am I? I sit ere and wonder God still sees a need for me???
I am just in awe, thru everything he sees my beauty like no other........................
I walk a thousand feet from him and be gone forgetting I exist because of him................
When the world I run to shuts me out, I want to remain in that cold and lonely place,
How dare me walk back into his love? his door he never closed, his food he always gave,
His bed he always made for me, I am a queen in his house yet I go out to the world..............
The same recycling act that would keep happening after genrations leave this life...........
I go sleep on the floor where I am not even welcomed,
I hear him weeping in hurt, watching me on the floor when my bed is neatly made in his house
God has been so merciful to me and I do not deserve it, but in grace I am humbled and thankful
I am walking my way back into his love, where its constantly warm and reassuring, where its safe,
Where its love for free, where I can act myself, where I can be understood.................................
God I am thankful for seeing me worthy of life for keeping me still....................
I am enjoying ur presence, I am enjoying the messages u send me thru various means................
I knw I need to prepare for u, I knw I am holding u back from doing what u want to do...............
I clog my heart with impurities and settle for darkness instead of light!!!!!
I am in awe and just want to say thank u for second chances that have become uncountable
Lord thank u, thank u! My heart is in an over flow mode .....................................
I just can put to writing whats on me now, I am just in awe for u are a wonder to me!
I am grateful, i am just an over pour of how much ugliness I av displayed despite ur beauty.............
I give all of me to U!

MONDAY SMILES

2010-09-27T14:57:00.003-04:00

Hey y'all
How's everyone doing? great i suppose, Moi? Just been njoying my last few days to the beginning of another semester, pls dont remind me sigh! The only fun part is in a few months Ill be home in GIDI yeeeeeeeeeeeees! I am so excited I am going home, feeling the love of family and pple who just appreciate you is a blessing.
Its been, not a so bad monday and I am really wishing 4:59pm wld creep up fast.....going to njoy this evening watching a movie or sumtin! alrighty tk kr lurvies and have a great week ahead

Deuces ♥ ♥

DETOX.....

2010-09-22T15:25:00.007-04:00

Hey y'all

Hope u are all great? Moi? I thank God, I am finding my way back to me......I av been kidnapped by technology, Blackberry messenger, TWITTER, Facebook gudness its a total shame. I get up in the morning and the first thing I grab my fone like what madness *lol* I have decided to get a detox from it all and catch up with REAL LIFE. I am on break from school and I plan to read my novels, get on TV shows and have meaningful conversations with friends like I used to.
Its sinking real hard I have totally lost myself to the world of Twitter especially and I cannot even begin to tell how much I wish i cld take back the hands of time in certain siutations but hey guess we learn everyday. It registered today cuz of sumtin in particular and I am glad it did, like an eye opener of how my crazy addiction was getting, imagine my eyes about to pop reading thru every tweet to me or not its called GBEBORUN no need to buttress it, and I hate that. I used to love to get on twitter, say hi, put down inspiring words I get the priviledge to birth and just encourage and appreciate pple..... these days its turned to a war zone, a spy fest and unnecessary drama, so before I become what I hate let me balance my life :)>.
Anyways dont mind me, other pple r on twitter and enjoying the craze and still balance out, guess I am just the kinda chic who wears her heart on her sleeves so u knw everything going on with me, excited, sad, wishing, wanting whatever....I am liberal with my thots but unfortunately i forget we have the judgemental board on there *twitter*.
Anyhoos been enjoying my break from school, one week gone already shoot, 2 more weeks and I am just looking forward to getting it done with and looking forward to my trip to Nigeria....too excited but in a calmer way, was looking forward to seeing a lot of people and hanging out but as time passes by the chord that holds a relationship start to show its strength and how long it wld last for, many have broken and some are holding out cuz I still choose 2, anyways whatever happens I hope to be a blessing and friend to those left in my life, this is not in referral to anyone in particular just thot thru the whole year.....
Well this is me lately, all moduled up like a mess but I am sorting thru and trying to stay on my grind, in general God has been faithful and believe me wen I say I dont knw why he chooses to spare me but I can only prove I am worthy of the several chances I have been given right?. Shout out to the ones who see thru my crazyness, walls and mirage and appreciate the content inside, love u much!
Forgive me, its one of those gibberish of a day and my thots...mwah!
Aight God bless u all.
N.B - Not getting off Twitter but need to learn to do other things without my BB :)>, first step deleting Uber oh yes! Its like crack, there must be MORE 2 LIFE :)>
M♥la

MY TESTIMONY, HIS BLESSING

2010-09-13T11:50:00.021-04:00

Hi everyone, its been a long while I knw forgive me :)> never knew school could take so much of one's social life with the added bore from the western world already. So here i am all excited my semester ended yesterday phew! U av no idea, its been one of the most dreaded classes because I HATE calculations guess u noticed my hate in caps, never liked maths in school, I never expect to ace any mathematical paper but my story this semester is God infested period.
So this was my summer class which started JULY - SEPTEMBER, before then was my spring semester which was divided into 2!
Spring II started April - June, anyways each semester as we all students know U r given ur financial aid to start the new semester, we are about 16 in my class, pretty cool course mates and we keep getting enrolled altogether so we had gotten used to one another.
Apparently in my spring semester they made an error wiv my check and gave me double the loan they should av awarded me, now I did not knw that was the case, I just assumed I got lucky and was probably given extra....lilttle did I knw and thats where my hurdle began.
* I got my check cashed it paid for my semester had a few extra cash left, I invested wisely and gave back
* I went thru spring semseter, one of my fave classes and the Prof was just heaven sent.
* As the semester drew to a close, I started to check for my next enrollment which is for summer
* My name never came up???
* I called financial aid office, they always assured me all was fine, I should not worry ok then.......
* The spring semester eventually ended and that same day my school account was flashing a negative
* -$4,464.......ok there has to be a mistake sum where
* Called financial aid office back again and was finally told I had a balance of over 4000 to pay???
* So the question of how, why and what came about and it was broken down to me.....
* I was over paid and dey did not realize it till they were about to enroll me seriously?
* I had spent this money even if it was an error, I felt everything crash right in front of me ( I worry a lot)
* Ok solution how do I get to enroll for my next class and Ill pay back the money in installments.....
* They told me not until i finished paying off the negative blc of $4. 464 I could not enroll 4 anymore classes.
* So assume I decide to pay 1000 each month which was playing myself it wld av bin hell & high waters
* I would not enroll for summer classes and miss fall too?? every semester is 3 months..........
* I was confused and tried everything but nope I had to pay back, I just wondered how?
* I left my office DEJECTED, I was ANGRY at God like I av never before, I was bleeding inside
* Yep its just school but I had set my mind on a certain time to finish, I had no intentions of a break......
* I got home and It was all dark in my world, I just felt I was tested beyond limit and cld not do it nmore.
* I had a sister talk to me and encourage me but I had no intention of listening, she cant feel my pain I said...
* This was a wknd, It was the most down time for me, sum close pple to my heart tried to be there but......
* I cld not be moved, i cld not pray I just wondered how God gave me the opportunity and den took it??
* I decided ill try and source for the money but everyone was cash trapped, I cld understand that.......
* 2 friends were promising but this made me realize God is a jealous God and he shares his glory wiv NONE
* My sister tried to encourage me, I just did not av any reason to be happy.................
* I had 5 days to enroll for the next class, I was the only one wit this issue God why???
* Invariably Sunday night came no lining in my clouds, I decided Ill fast for 3 days for the heck of it............
* I had given up and just felt I must av been paying for sum Sin little did I know............
* Monday I started the fast, by noon I was abt to pray but found no words, I was broken inside...........
* Broken cuz I felt I had no reason to get these hits from life not wen its all going on smooth *My thinking*
* I just said these words God do what u wish, u knw best I cant even pray *DO UR THANG*
* I went abt my business and did nothing much on monday, went to bed and slept off still sad
* Tuesday continued the fast, I decided to check my school website, and went over my account O_O
* I saw a zero balance, I blinked so hard I thot my eyes wld pop, My heart rate went on a double count
* I rushed to the phone called the financial aid office just incase my account was just being closed
* I spoke to a gentle man who said my account was in good standing, pls this only happens in movies
* I thot to myself even If by sum slim chance places I was expecting funds from came thru...........
* It wld be deposited in my personal account not school account, I was pulsating hard....
* Then the guy told me I was awarded a GRANT, me? I never applied for one, he says are u sure??
* I answered yes, he goes well u were awarded and it cleared ur account, in disbelief I asked
* Do I av to pay back? Silly questions Grants are not paid back he answered NO
* All this while I had 2 days to enroll, When he confirmed I was cleared and got me enrolled
* I sat still and looked up, God embarrassed me and shut me up.
* The grant I was given was not one cent under or over the negative the school said I owed??? it was EXACT
* This happens to Pastors or ministers, this is plain me I said, but when I got over the shock .......
* I realised God decided to teach me a lesson of Trusting in him, I was so angry but had no one else but him
* I realised he is the God of suddenly, the one who makes the impossible POSSIBLE
* He made me go thru all that to appreciate leaning on him and not MAN................
* Everyone that offered to do sumtin at the last min could not but that was GOD
* My hope was dashed and at the 99th hour God decided to show my blind self wat he says all the time
* He wld never forsake his own, Just trust him, i was so clouded with disappointment I could not pray
* The great thing about this class is, I never aced a calculation problem but this class...............
* It was intense with financial accounting I had no background of, yet my 10 classes I aced all...........
* I doubted my abilities atimes but when my scores are sent back I am amazed .............
* This is not because calculations are pretty simple, its not because U can apply a formula
* My brain never would process liking calculations but GOD saw me thru this 10 weeks PERIOD
* It had nothing to do with me my strength is in writing and I knw God gave me this class for his glory.
So far this has been my ordeal these past 3 months and God has just been amazing, I was going to share this testimony in church but somehow, sumtin always comes up and I wont make it to church which is why I decided to blog about it and hope it would bless someone who might be going through a tough situation.
It does not have to be school, it could be finances, relationships, whatever just know God just needs u to look up and say *do ur thing*. Fasting sure does help and a contrite heart gets God's ears.
I am grateful for those who stop by and read my blog, its not the fashionable blogs out there but thank u for humbling me as u read my ramblings.
God bless u all
xoxoxo Mola

HIS STORY

2010-08-26T22:55:00.003-04:00

Its been a tiring day, all he needed was a cold beer
He was driving down from the station, the sun was setting
It was a beautiful evening looking at the skies but...............
He was in no mood matched with anything nice at the moment
He saw her today....as much as he wanted to cuss he held back
His ex with her fiance driving down odell drive making out in traffic
"She never was a PDA type" he thought, what the hell was that??
The memories came back, he remembered that horrid day......
He had come back from a stake out, his partner got shot
He was trying to deal with the whole debriefing and then......
She called, Let me call u right back babe, No wait she said
This cant wait, I'm sorry but cant do this nmore Peter!!!
The silence and den the dial tone , she had dropped the call..
He rushed back to debrief and got time off to rush home
He got home, his heart was ripped, the rage came like lightning
He tried to call her cell but she wont pick up!!! Cld his day get any worse??
How cld she walk out and give up on everything? How cld she loose faith?
No, I wont do this he said, he parked his car and had to take a deep breath
Its been 3 years and this rage is just as bad everytime he remembers her.......
He had given his whole life to make sure he did right........
He made sure he was on the right side of the law by becoming a cop
He tried to provide and make everyone happy, even if it broke his back
He might not be the guys on wall street or the white house but dammit.......
"I have a heart and I made sure I gave u all even if it meant I had NOTHING"
He looked up and the sun was almost out of radar, he got himself together
And drove towards Maggie's bar, that cold beer was a necessity at this point
As he pulled into the parking lot, some of his colleagues were leaving the bar
He exchanged pleasantries and he walked in ......................
The bar was all foggy, cigars and the heat all a mix this was Maggies!!!!
He sat at the bar, ordered a cold beer and as he waited to be served............
His eye caught her, in a bar full of mostly frustated men he thot to himself
What would such a lady be doing in here? ok maybe she was a new employee
But even at that, he just could not comprehend such innocence in the bar.......
She walked to the bar and asked to speak to the manager.................
Just as he wanted to approach her, she was asked to meet the manager!!!
What in the world is going on? He could not shake off this uneasy feeling
Ill hang around he decided!!

HER STORY!!

2010-08-15T22:50:00.007-04:00

She tried to speak, but her lips wont move
She tried to reach but her hands wouldnt move
She tried everything but nothing seemed to work
Where do I go, Who do I call she asked????
She tried to walk, but her knees caved in............
She crawled, she saw the light but it was only a bleak
Her eyes were blurred, her lips chapped.............
She cld taste the blood, she felt the dust............
Yet alone on the lonely path, she made up her mind to move
The pain was excruciating, her will was daunted.............
She wanted to give up, Who cared anyways............
Maybe sumone wld help, seeing her helpless
Maybe not, whats the guarantee she aint a street whore
Probably trying to steal and got beat up..........
She flinched in pain, the wind was fierce ................
The streets were lonely and the night cld not av been darker
As she crawled, she heard voices and she lay still
The wind tossed her hair, the voices were closer.....
Footsteps!!! sounded like drunks and dey moved past her
She laid lifeless on the ground, as they walked on
She moved and they stopped, the noise???
She caught her breath, and cld hear them.............
Dear lord was all she cld say and she felt the foot......
The foot tapped her and then turned her over..........
There in the dark, she recognized the voice
She had no strength to move and surrendered to death
A hand grabbed on her hair and dragged her up
These hoodlums were thirsty and hungry for her
Drunk and sweating of Alchohol.....................
All she cld mutter was Lord let this night END!!
Then.................
A bark echoed, den a flash light....It was HIM
As he walked, the keys and links on his belt clanked
He walked towards them and as he approached the scene
They ran, and she slumped back on the ground...........
He let loose his dog as it chased after them...............
He ran towards her and gathered her to him.........
He shook her, but she felt numb, Miss he said
She thot she heard him, She opened her eyes but...........
She saw nothing, the stars in the skies seemed like Dots
She saw darkness and den it became real BLACK OUT!!!

LOVING U...

2010-07-27T22:01:00.000-04:00

Its been a while...............
I fell in love with u as hard as i fought not falling
I cld not believe cupid shot me his arrow, more amazed at how fast i fell again
Do u not learn I ask?? Cupid has shot one too many and they end up broken!
I resisted falling but i fell anyways, ur Charm was irresistible....
This time like many others I fell hard but with a difference,
I fell with reserved strength to rise when cupid left a hole in my heart.....
I was ready to laugh at cupid when it decided it was time to leave,
Ill be fine cuz u wont be the first to leave.................
All these thoughts in my head i loved u still
Days gone by, months pass and Years have rolled by,
Cupid's arrow slowly reveals its beauty
The reflections are captivating to the eyes..........
I fight it , but can u fight urself????
I try not to look in ur eyes cuz i see my future but scared its a mirage
I try not to hold u for long, cuz like a ghost i predict ull become
I try not to think of you, even though my thoughts cant process anything else
I try not to dream of you, cuz waking up is like torture and ill rather remain in trance
I try not to believe love found me........
Loving u flows like a rhythm, sweet and pleasing to the ears
Loving u makes life simple and optimistic
Loving u gives me reason to smile
Loving u has taught me maturity
Loving u has blessed me
Loving u is what ill choose to do in another life!!
I av found the one to whom i am ALL to.........

RAMBLINGS

2010-07-25T11:46:00.004-04:00

Hallo my loves, Special shout out to Gretel cuz I knw u want me back and I think I am beginning to miss blogsville so bad...Twitter got me hooked like crack but I am so in dire want of a DETOX from it.
So, whats been happening to me? frankly nothing interesting same old boring life, trying to stay out of trouble and just be grateful to God for the chance of life. The past week was hmmm! Sumtin that wlda av escalated into a messy she said, he said which is not my style thank Gudness to reality check and guess the part of me that has come to terms with life happens.
School is well..... school, surprisingly I am doing better than I expected so maybe i just was not as sharp back then cuz I hate calculations and here I am doing well with it, all thanks to favour is all iil say............
Not been to the movies in a bit heard Inception was good, I want to see Salt, Yep a lot of pple dont like Angelina Jolie but I love her cuz she does what she does WELL....She wears the tag bad chic with no apologies guess at one point in ur life u av to stop caring what others think of u and appreciate what u see in the mirror.
I am going thru a process of Spring cleaning, I love wen i say this, its just me cleaning out unwanted pple in my life, unwanted elements, habits that have just not gotten me any further in the past months. For the pple gudness I cant wait cuz its just been a drag, everyone wants to use u to get by and wen they r back on their feet u become the nuisance, well guess my heart needs to be killed cuz I think I am 2 warm hearted to pple who really dont deserve it. U r nice they call u Kiss Ass, u r indifferent dey call u a Snub oh well!!! Anyways its part of life and a friend once told me why allow a NOBODY upset u this much, sumtimes u really just dont want to believe humans r capable of things they say or do yet I am grateful it always comes back in circles. As long as u never wish ill on anyone, ur life can never be cut off God's amazing grace thats my testimony.
I love this month of July cuz of a gift I received, Its the most beautiful gift I cld av asked for in these times and I just pray and hope it wld be ever green.....As August journey begins, I plead u smile on me like July, its beyond my explanations or understanding but can i just have what I want this one time :)> Ok thats that, i need to go get ready this evening is my Pastor's birthday and I need to go shop for a gift, what do u buy a guy who is a GQ dresser?? Pastor Paul Irabor is a killer dresser what!! anyways church wld be fun this evening and I think i need sum church in me today......
Next time ill share an experience that made me realize when God says I am that I am he truly means it......
Thanks to u all who read my ramblings, sumdays I am inspired, sumdays I am just me broken and emotional and sumdays I am pumped but either ways for those who tell me i touch them, I gave them strength, u all are the reason I keep writing, cuz trust me I doubt my abilities sumtimes but u all give me the PUSH God bless....
This is to U GPWG U rock!!!!! Xoxoxoxo
TejuMola

LWKMD

2010-07-14T02:23:00.006-04:00

Hey pple,
Its been a while I knw so much has been going on not had the time to blog as much eer not so I tweet LOL. Its been a beautiful month of July and its been a special one to me. School started again so back on the hustle of my brain, last week was fun i took a break from school and went to see a comedy show hosted by my friend Jedi Ayo and his co comedians Wale Gates, Basket Mouth, Seyi and Yvonne. I had a lot of fun met a few people who have become good friends and finally met a certain sumone I had always known I wld meet even though he sure thought never.
Show was nice, classy and a lot of laughs the after party was nice and I can say its going to get bigger anf I am particularly happy for my friend u knw it babe, its all urs just let go.......

So whats new with me? Nothing much my prof this semester I aint feeling at all, coupled with this semester is not one of my core strengths FINANCE ACCOUNTING/ECONOMICS arrrgh i hate aving to use excel but oh well! So i shall try to work on this week's assignment today and get sumwhere cuz on friday i get a lot of goodies from the UK, esp my Fruit & Fibre cereal , love , love it so much. My friend is coming to town yayness, hope i get my assignment done on time and have a nice weekend , not so looking forward to cracking my brain.
Oh! July i want to kiss u so bad thanks for being a lovely month to me.....mwah!!
Alrighty enough of nothing to say, Wish my sis Jade safe journey to gidi today hope u have all the fun (safe) u can.
July 5th sacred day....
y'all av a blessed day!!!
~ TejuMola

TAYE ARCHIE SMALLS MAYAKI

2010-06-27T10:37:00.005-04:00

Its been almost 2 yrs since my heart was ripped

I miss u so much Paul, My friend I am ere crying in my room cuz i cannot talk to u
U wlda av been the only one who cld understand me right now, listen to me ramble
Not say a word, till I am done, den clean my tears, take a drive to choc-royale
Or we listen to ur Alternative CD's while u tell me about how u miss G or
What D was up to again, Times like this my heart aches so bad, God truly knws
I wld give anything to hear ur laugh again, I remember our plans for fashion school
Archie, u did not tell me what was going on, how cld u deny me this?
Why did u tell everyone not to tell me, I knw its been a while but i miss my friend
I need you so bad now, cuz ull av told me what to do thru the clouds................
Archie we miss u, I av 2 friends now Glory & Danisa my God we miss u in different ways
Its just not fair u are not here to see us, celebrate what we r all doing, while we wait on U
Ur fashion sense was taking Nigeria by storm, everyone was loving ur designs
I knw ull av been so wanted right now, dressing celebs and all Gudness Y?
God i cannot question U but u took my friend from me wen i was just enjoying....
The fruit of our friendship, appreciating sumone who took me for me
Sumone who wanted nothing from me, God forgive me, Paul was precious
He was so selfless, i remember nights wen i wld just call and he wld drive down......
Not conscious of time, all he cared for was he was there when i needed him...
Who wld be Paul for me, God i av u and i am grateful but...........................
I wish i did more for Paul, I was far away, he was getting excited about me getting married
I wld av seem him this trip home (Nigeria) i wld av hugged my friend,
Oh death ur hands are terribly cold, my heart is constantly bleeding for my friend
I try to move on I cant Paul was special and always wld be.......................
We miss u Paul :- Glory, Ifueko, Danisa, Kagho, Yvonne, Henry, Ebo, Mewo, Akome, James, Emeka, Matthew, osagie..............and so much more of the lives u touched!
Paul I miss u so much!

SEXES LOVE & WAR

2010-06-22T12:04:00.011-04:00

Happy Belated fathers day to all the father's out there....
I was reading an article and it said, on mother's day
Mothers get the most calls but on father's day........
More collect calls are made, I paused and thought hmm!
Men have become victims, fighting back av become futile
Generally Women believe men are the ENEMY,
Men try to prove otherwise only to be pushed out to the cold
So now as the women try to find friends, the men result to being the enemy!
Now whats that saying again "Be careful what u wish for"
I am not a feminist, I am not on a Pro Men campaign but........
Its high time we celebrate this men, we can hate them, blame them
Their children love them regardless of the hate the mothers feed them......
U walk into the prisons and the men tear up at the picture of their kids
Half of the time, the fight for survival and the measure of his worth as a man
Lands him in Jail, I am not condoning crimes, but if they got a lil support,
a lil love, a lil understanding, a lil security, Men r truly like babies.......
Men no disrespect but, they need to be nutured too, see past the Machoism
They get insecure too, they get scared of failing as a Man, husband or father
Sum had to look to the streets to learn to be a man
Sum had to be beaten down to learn to fight back
Sum had to learn to control anger by watching their mums get hit.....
Sum had to watch their sisters cry thru heartbreak.....
To learn what not to do to another woman.......
I know we say they are liars, cheats and all what not yet.....
The good ones r still not appreciated enough........
Celebrate them, let them have a reason to come home,
Women we know we r our own Poison Ivy.............
A man refuses ur advances and u go all out to destroy his home
Now wives, understand that rather than fight in times like this
Ur weapon is ur knees and lips to GOD, it seems cliche but its the truth
Men are made by God to care, protect and love us............
When u make a man feel he is invaluable to U his value wld never be seen
No man wants to feel like u can handle it all the time even if you can
Let them handle it, its their sense of pride, the moment you do it all
The less of his value is what u wld see not realizing u av been ...........
Too busy being both the Man & Woman in the relationship..........
Dont let the bedroom be the only place u regard him as a Man
Give him his respect and let him be a Man to you..............
Now this is to the abled men out there, I am certainly not talking
To the junkies, excuse of a man, husband or father , the liars or cheats
No they are out there, but the women seem to stick to them more??
Women complain wen they get the guy who adores them , treats dem like Queens
The unfortunate thing is they mess it up for the women who wld appreciate it..........
Men ill also say the cover aint the gold look at its content b4 u will ur life to her......
Men & Women are interesting group of people, but they are too bent on revenge......
Revenge for the one who gave them hell and destroy the one bringing them paradise.....
Men are wonderful people and the truth is we cannot do without them.....
Everytime u complain be sure a thousand are singing his praise out there
No one is saying lower ur standards, No one is saying be a slave but.....
Be rest assured every girl wld neva tell you all she does in her relationship,
The things she tells u she cannot take she has taken worse than that from a man......
When you make a ridicule of ur man in front of the world, u go back behind closed doors
Then make up, Ur man wld still be a carricature of a being to the world............
Men pick the right ladies, dont go about with Jezebels.............
U all come back destroyed and expect us to fix you NO...........
Women are not meant to fix, manage, accept or be numb to unacceptable things
God designed us to give and get the best of one another, when u give ur best to swines
Dont expect to make a haven with a Swan and not meet up halfway..........
Lets celebrate one another, life is too short to get choked on irrelevancies.....
Leave ur past where it is, and take a risk by walking into the future.......
~TejuMola

END OF THE SEMESTER

2010-06-11T10:44:00.001-04:00

Woo hoo! how is everyone doing? I am so gr8 phew!!! My semester ended 2 days ago and it was an eventful end. Ok we had a team assignment, we had a presentation to make to the class, here is the thing, i do not love speeches, give me a pen and paper ill write but a mic u sent me to my death (well not literally).
In all of these doubt and fear, a team member was a no show, the other could not get on the net, i had to basically finish the slides and scripts in less than 6hrs, I pratically was juggling my work, my boss's constant calls, BBM's, and my concentration on this project.
AIM: So as a Team we are to make recommendations for a virtual team concerning a project and the various training, technology, performance assessment and all the Business Managerial blabs! It was crazy researching, citations, scripts and prepping for questions that might be asked, hmm! well i did all i could concluded the research, inserted graphics on our power points and got ready to leave the office at 5pm, ok u knw how when you have a dead line all the possible wrongs would start to happen. Got to d elevator, had my fone in my ears, Oga wont let down he had to speak to me, then BBM's important once kept beeping red, had stuff in my hand, got downstairs yes RAIN!. i finally made it to the Bus stop got on the bus and lo and behold i had entered the wrong bus checked the time 10 mins to 6 Oh! dear, now i had to cut him off the fone boo sorry this love wld happen after this finals. I was nervous of presenting, i had the power point in my flash drive, team might av been waiting oh! it was one of those days o yes! But the love i got from my people on twitter, Sumtimes we all say twitter is addictive, its sumtin to be banned but i say its therapeutic for me....I write like i see no one, unfortunately sum pple think dey knw u more than urself and try to tell u what u r saying when u knw what u really are saying (LOL) yeah confused u there right! I LOVE twitter met the sweetest pple and yet sum obnoxious lots on there.
Ok back to my finals, i eventually kissed the sky and took a cab trying to go over what i was going to say yet it still did not make sense. I got to school eventually, the team met briefly and we headed to class, of course we saw other teams looking all sharp and ready, we looked at each other and just hoped for a miracle.
The first group went, all tech and precise and had good talkers, then we were next, we are 5 on a team, i was second to the last, the ones before me were NERVOUS all shaky and half the time seemed they were not making sense even though we had our points, well urs truly got her turn and i started by saying, u av to forgive me i dont do speeches real nervous...............den God is all i knw took control i never for once looked at the script in my hand, i was intriguing them with all i was saying and the nods got me all fired up.
I finished and the last girl came on said her piece and we were applauded whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat? I was so thankful and we had a bit of debates and questions thrown at each other, but our lovely wonderful professor Dr. SANDEEP PATNIAK, i cant forget him so gifted, a true professor yet a human being, he cld relate with us and i just bless the almighty for such favour others dont have it that good.
He helped me improve my writing skills and i can say this class though me a great deal..........................so thats how my finals went, we took a group picture and he asked us to reach out anytime, i sure will he deserves appreciation and u never knw when ull need a recommendation.
So now i am ere chilling its friday, the World cup starts today, the fever bug caught everyone else and i am just same old me , about to do comedies or a movie, soccer just aint my thang!
Alrighty loves hope u av a blessed weekend!
Mwah

TejuMola

HAPPY NEW MONTH

2010-06-01T12:16:00.007-04:00

Yay! pple was up?? Happy Nu Month to everyone and its already the middle of the year i am uber excited.. How are u al doing hope gr8? Urs truly has had a real ryde is al i can say but i can tell u i am so smiling right now. First, specials shout out to my ladies, Funkolaani, Solomonsydelle & Myne whitman fellow bloggers like me but they are true readers of my blog which i seriously think is not half as interesting as theirs yet they take out time to read my ish!...Love u guys!
So the last time i was ere was abt a month ago all jaded and all, of course love stinks, well so i thot lol! I had a bit of a situation and i thot so dejavu, so not doing this again, it was just too much to deal with at the time, had school on my neck, work was just not anything to write home about and den HIM! like i said it was a make or break situation and i already signed d dotted lines on the latter but when God says sumtin concerning u no one can alter it thats what i av come to realize. I am not the saintly of persons, i am a far cry infact but sometimes the second chance God gives is almost like u should say Lord pls take it back cuz u realize how much ignorant u av been of who he is, how much you have taken for granted, how much u had forgotten he existed till chaos become ur cloak.
That was me! I was just in on too many daily activities, had misplaced priorities and stopped PRAYING biggest attraction of hell, I knew i had to pray but i just was not motivated to, but aving true friends and a grounded family is nothing to be taken for granted.....It was a crazy time and i say al the time twitter is therapeutic for me, i get on and say rubbish as much as i want, av pple understand or misunderstand ur intentions yet it takes my mind away from the real issue.
Invariably we said BREAK it is and GOD shut us up by saying he MADE us we cant break US, we took time out and reflected on what was going on, what was making us go crazy and realized we stopped praying, and we took each other for granted period! A whole lot of other personal stuff but those 2 things kill relationships fast, i say all d time variety is the spice of life, u av to keep it fresh as much as u can, communicate which is sumtin i do not do to well! Working on that ill rather shut down and burst after but ladies i am no expert but its better u say what u want, how u want it cuz MEN i av accepted are just babies, i av tried to shun that mentality but they truly are! phew!
All these long story I am good, in a perfect place, learned a lot, Understood Prayer is it or nothing and worship is like the oil that eases the friction between, TRUE WORSHIP melts the heart of GOD.
I went for a women's retreat this weekend and a lady read a scripture that has been marked in my heart forever, I am sorry cannot remember the verses but ill find out..paraphrasing " true worship to God pleases him, and when we worship truly from our hearts the 24 elders in heaven bow down in worship to him our maker " So if the elders in heaven bow down in worship to God who are we not to loose ourselves in worship and see what God wld do for us?
I said earlier i am no preacher. i am a far cry from a saint I am just a wroking progress sharing my highs & lows on ere and i hope someday some experience wld touch a soul or help sumone out!
So the paper i was hoping to make a good grade on despite the chaos on my mind....I made a B+ and my prof was real impressed with my writing, so u see i do function better in crisis even though i thot i wrote a whole bunch of what did not make sense, it just goes to show how much we under estimate ourselves atimes...A bad habit i av!
I av one more week of school before my next semester, 2 weeks of time off and i intend to watch movies, TV shows i av missed and read my stack of novels, DETOX from twitter and catch up with the real world lol! i say that all d tyme but my beautiful followers just attract me back!
I hope this is worth reading , thanks still for getting to this very last part cuz ill leave u with this...............
Everyone wants to be the BEST, but y dont u try for once being the PREFERRED, we all r good at what we do, we av a lot of pple who do best in the same things using diff techniques but instead of H8ing av ur audience and be satisfied in the qaulity of what u give out!
♥

Teju Mola

DEJAVU

2010-05-10T11:20:00.007-04:00

Hey Hey Hey,
She's back phew! How are u beautiful and wonderful people doing today? Moi? funny i shld be sad and broken but i am in high spirits dont knw if its a denial thing going on but i love it, frankly i think it was my pastor's words yesterday. Church was awesome and i think i just poured out my heart at God's feet, coupled with this angelic baby i carried through worship Oh cant wait to have mines!!!! Her mum was so sweet it was mothers day and i could tell she was tired and i just decided to help her carry her lil princess while she danced on her day.
Ok back to why i am sad.....Yup u were write Love, its not totally broken but really cracked and its make or break at this point and all i can say is God knws best. I probably shld not be telling all this but sumtimes i feel i am reaching out to someone who might just need to understand u are not alone in whatever situation u find urself. We all are human beings with blood flowing thru us, never ever think u r super human God made u for extra ordinary things not to believe u are beyond natural human feelings he has allowed to teach us, mould us, and bring us back to his feet.
Thru all this as well, a very good friend of mine also needed a breather from stuff going on around him, so my only other place to sulk was not available, it was a rough weekend but hey i am good. I know God is taking me thru for a reason. Now to other things, i need to do a write up on these wonderful creatures called men.
Ladies i knw u av a milion and other words u cld call them , but for the good ones out there its time we give them a lil recognition and tell 'em we see them ......
Myself and a friend of mine are on to a project and i am really hoping it falls thru, wonderful vision of his and i can only say i am privilege to be working with him on this, smart and intellectual dude and he sure is fun in his own lil world, pls follow my friend Bolu on twitter @Gidiguy......
Alrighty other than the same 'ol routine of work, school and a boring time nothing new has been up with me, i had a paper i submitted yday, God knws if i make a B on that paper God was with me, and he marked that paper himself cuz i was not myself thru the wknd, it reminded me of a time in my college days 2nd year wen i was broken hearted and of all semesters in that school it was the best semester in my entire grade of my four years! Lets just say i focus better through crisis? lets see what i score on this paper ill be sure to share....
Have a good one pple and stay blessed

~TejuMola

MY PASSION ♥

2010-04-24T07:41:00.002-04:00

Hi everyone,
Hope all is well at ur ends, moi? i am just chilling recovering from the flu and all sorta illness but i thank God for strength and healing. We Nigerians are still mourning the young talent we lost DAGRIN, i never met him but i feel so connected to him through the voice of everyone who is mourning him. May the good lord bless his soul and keep his family through this difficult time, after the burial, mourning period the FAMILY is left alone to deal with this loss and thats when they need God d most who is the only one who can truly comfort them.
So my passion WRITING, everyone who knows me knw i love to write its something i do , my escape route, the best way i express myself, the therapy for my soul after music.....Writing just does it for me. I think i av been awakened to a purpose i want to pursue and this was aided by a friend of mine #Uknwwhouare....
I write when the inspiration comes, post stuff on facebook or my blogs, lately not really written much and then on wednesday i get this ping and my friend said to ask me of a favour, coming from U most definitely would do anything for u in a heartbeat and den I was honoured to be asked to write a POEM.
Ok, this might not mean anything but to me i felt like a million bucks, my friend had been reading stuff i wrote and trusted me enough to express feelings felt through my words. I wrote the Poem and it was very appreciated and i just like to say i am very grateful for that belief in me, and i also would love to tell my faithful readers if u need me to write something for u pls holla, soon i know God is taking me and my passion to a greater height that would be celebrated for a good cause.
Thank U O, and you knw ill forever be rooting for y'all.
God bless u all and have a lovely weekend

~TejuMola

THE CEO DAGRIN!!

2010-04-23T12:03:00.009-04:00

Its a sad day in the Nigerian entertainment industry today, on twitter, in the family homes of Olaitan aka Dagrin as well as in the lives of his friends and fans. Nigeria has produced some of the best musical artises of all times in Africa and Dagrin was a product of these blooming times.....
I am a huge fan of Nigerian music, the beats drive me a whole lot to the ground, all u need is to put in a CD ill dance all the way for u. I heard about Dagrin i think Early Nov 2009, My soon to be brother - in - law asked if i had heard a guy called Dagrin? i was like no, at the time i was bumping to Eldee's Ota mi, lami phillips I know ft M.I and the new Styl+Plus singles. i rushed to notjustok.com could not find him then i go on youtube Oh! that was the moment i fell in love with him, i did not even know he was rapping in YORUBA all i heard was Mummy mi o si ni le, kondo, and a sick beat, U guessed right i was on the repeat button and soon the words i spat out like i wrote the lyrics. I had my girl go home and buy me his CD and just the thought of that makes me wanna shed a tear i guess i just realized how much i loved him.
His death brought back the painful memory of loosing my friend PAUL Archie SMALLS - that was my ace and i dont think i can ever get over his death he was marred in my heart for life, I remember the many times i smiled and laughed back then he was always by my side, most times i look back and try to see if there was ever a shred of doubt about how much i loved him.....I am glad to say he knew, even wen he said his goodbyes he told me i miss u and love u much see u soon i just never knew it wont be till we meet at the feet of our master.
Dagrin i never knew him personally but the tweets i av seen, the words from people and the light he seemed to radiate while he was alive makes me wish i met him or tweeted at him once to appreciate his talent, encourage his hustle and tell him to step over the H8rs. He made a joke about an interview where people commented on his grammar, and i wonder!!!! wen would we truly appreciate the fact that these artistes, or anyone as well could av chosen to be rogues, thieves and menace to the society instead with the poor backgrounds, with the hardship of their youths they have made something of their lives, paying their parents for the nights of toil, the scorching sun they hawked to feed dem, the rainy seasons they had to shield their kids from leaking roofs or the cold weather and the times they lay sick but they fought for their survival? I sincerely think we all need to take a second and watch what we say to people who are doing what they can how they know best, i see people who just bite into these artistes like they are not human like the rest of us?? They have their fears, insecurities and need support and encouragment, the power of a smile or a pat on the back y'all have no idea what it does. I have been on twitter and watch people just disabuse it, i love to make people smile, i love to encourage people, its amazing how many pple i av never met but open up to me just because they feel safe to talk or be heard, people are struggling within themselves, if u cant make them feel better, its better u dont even bother talking to them.
Truthfully, some artistes do come off with a chip on the shoulder some hide behind these walls for fear of showing what they really feel, lets all try to remember they are HUMAN BEINGS just like us. The One person u love and believe in his character is the same person another being is disgusted at? Its a shame it takes death to express how much u loved someone wen you could easily show it while they were alive. Michael Jackson was mourned all over the world but half of the support and tears he got, if all through the times the media slandered him he got this much love from people maybe he would have felt the need to connect more to people cuz they saw him beyond what he was made to be on the front pages.
I just wrote all these cuz thats the state my heart is and i av connected dearly to so many people on twitter which truly has brought us all together in Nigeria, I just hope we all remember to stop hating on one another, believe in ourselves and believe in genuine friendships, its so sad some people are shallow minded to think everyone wants to get in between your legs or want to cop on ur fame.....BREATHE we brought nothing to earth we are taking nothing back. Learn to discern the fakes and just maybe you would start to see the angels God has brought your way through networking, u never know where your help is coming from.
DAGRIN 1983-2010 REST IN PEACE

TOUGH TUESDAY

2010-04-20T12:57:00.003-04:00

Phew! i cant even front on this one i am meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssed up! gudness its been a hellish day for me, had so much on my mind yday and then today just rang it in a step further. I dont knw whats with tuesday the last time i felt close to this was a stupid tuesday as well. 5pm where art thou? I want to get home go under my covers and forget today what??
Ok so a mis communication that set the whole beautiful house i had been putting together into chaos talk of a roller coaster ride, school is getting me IN, work is crazy and this? I have tried to fix this and the more i try the more i want to hit myself in the head for even bothering again cuz i am just spent wetin? I knw i am talking in codes ere but its jz better.
All ill say is i av not had the best of today , u plan on someting it goes the opposite direction, head, heart, body and soul aint right and i just need ur prayers plz let this right dose be sent to me tonite.......lol thanks my faithful readers. U might not get or make any sense of this but just pray for my dose God bless! xoxoxoxo

BACK & BETTER!!!

2010-04-19T11:54:00.005-04:00

Hey y'all ,
I knw i am tired of mii self too hehehe! twitter yeah blame it on her she takes me away and feeds me so much good stuff its hard not to keep going back everyday. Woo hoo the month of april has been beautiful my bday month, out with the ish and in with positivity ill say i av had a pretty good one lately.
School is back in session so hence my grouchy side but other than that life is pretty good, family, friends, lovers and all r all good. Yes Lovers Eat ur heart out who says u cant have lovers #definition someone who loves u, everyone thinks a lover is one who takes u to bed, well yeah its the term associated with it but i av my terms and theories for stuff.
I am in love o yes! u need to walk in my shoes to knw this feeling and the sweetest part is its all in my head FYI a dream u want to birth to life hehehehehe! So lets say i av a target yeah? Only this target dont knw he is one hot damn! The thot of him sets my being on fire and he is all that and more.
He is so sweet, his character is so full of positive energy and he is just an all round humble lad, anyhoos i love the mystery and in my mind we av made a pretty good life already cuz i have moved in as his wife, we have 2 kids already and he is jz keeping it sexy everyday.
Have u noticed ur fantasies are better left in ur head, the moment u take it to ur heart and relive ur dream its not as lovely as u had it in ur head. So pls let me enjoy myself hahahaha! i bet pple wld come on ere to judge me ill just say mind me NOT cuz i am crazy like this but feel free just dont take it to heart, many atimes writers write a scene, cop on that. Anywayz for those who knw we shall be seeing where we normally see....... in my head!
On the reality of my life i am good , baby is great working hard and we discussed carats this morning....yep i am in a chirpy mood cuz i believe i am just writing all the nonsense in my head.
I am off to my other home to continue on the adventure of Julio and the chic! have a good week y'all and stay blessed. ♥

HAPPY BDAY TO ME!!!

2010-04-05T23:10:00.000-04:00

Hey everyone,
I just want to quickly say hi and tell u i had d most amazing day today as my friends celebrated me round the globe! I got an amazing surprise and i felt love like never before.
I would write more tomorrow just a quick hi and promise to give u the low down of whats been going down in my world! I had a chaotic past wk but always numbed with this tsunami of my heart..................
See y'all tomorrow!

RAMBLINGS

2010-03-29T09:59:00.003-04:00

Hey y'all
Whats crackalacking?? Its monday i guess every where, the times might be different. I woke up today feeling good and promised to try and stay positive thru the week. Its raining so might av been the first cloud in my shine but i choose to focus on that shine in my world.
So whats everyone up to, Il say i av been on a lovely cruise in the last 2 weeks! O Sugar i cant even begin to describe this, i am up in the air , in the clouds call it what u want ill just say its all about the BAA!
In the last couple of months i av been a roller coaster with my emotions, not relationship wise, friends, family, work and just personal ish!! there comes a point u start to question some decisions, some friendships, some emotional ties that shld not av been made....now u get me good!
I was in one of those ish! and i wondered for a while whats my drive, i was about to make a silly mistake but thank goodness for my darling sis Dups, i wld av whipped myself now. I laugh at such stupidity cuz thats what it wld av been. Anyways invariably my eyes got cleared and slowly i got back into my element and there this gift of an Angel came!.
Am amazing friend i av knw for over a decade now and how much impact he has made in my life is jz amazing! His maturity, his care, his realness gudness it cant be real i tell myself all the time but oh well! i guess its true when they say u need the counsel of the wise ones and experience of the life learners to set u on the right path in life.
He has thot me grace, patience but one thing ill never forget is this piece of advice he gave me, try to take big issues lightly, stay positive and do ur best in all u do. I av been on a different high for a while cuz i am back to my old self, i was lost to a silly phase at one point but i am back and better, loving it as well.
I learn everyday from pple i meet in life, met some amazing folks on twitter while i av met some its better our paths never cross, so high on their horse the only thing u can pray for is the mighty fall on their nose (lol).
So in all i av been good! no gist for now, oh! yes we r planning my sis wedding and finally conviced her to move it to DEC, yay! cant wait to see my twam and rock with them.....its going to be a lvly dec and i am going to celebrate my sweetie's bday on Dec 19!!
Now, going back to work but first check on twitter and see whats new, :)
Mwah!!!

THOTS!!!

2010-03-19T10:48:00.005-04:00

These are Quotes i live by, some r by great men & women of History while some are just my thots inspired by both the good , bad & ugly!!!
Never make someone a PRIORITY while you are their OPTION ~ sounds hard i knw, been tough to practice but i had to take the bull by the horn hope u do the same. I av come to realize human beings r truly self centered.
Love is the only cure for a BROKEN HEART ~ many times we get heartbroken and the next thing we want to do is H8 or lash out! yep its very easy to but i say one thing to my friends: it hurts but allow your heart to heal..its a process, there is no quick way to dealing with such. Jump the nxt person ull hate urself more, Feeding into lust is easy but you are still left empty. The best way is to let all the cobwebs of ur past go , so that God wld bring the ever green present into ur heart.
Words KILL faster than a GUN/SWORD ~ If there is one thing i detest TACTLESS pple. I believe in moderacy, I just dont get the idea, when pple believe they can say anything they want to anybody cuz u r of higher status, ur fame or because u think you are good with words. I for one dont knw how to battle with words, i have friends good at it, but they knw me well enough to either be off me wen they r mad. Words cut me deep i cant explain it , i become a monster when u talk down at me lol.
O yeah some are good with sarcasm and thats a no brainer, but i believe wen pple think they are smart or smart mouthed its a mirage for the real person they are.
FAME GETS U THRU THE DOOR BUT CHARACTER KEEPS U IN THE ROOM ~ heard this quote from my bro REMI and i fell in love with it. Ok this is not even to just celebrities, when pple think they have gotten to a certain status, and a little shimmer of light shines a lil brighter on them than the rest..it becomes a problem. No one is saying dont bask in ur fame , but some choke on it and it ends up killing their personality.
Humility is Key and pple forget that, we all love to say I am proud, i am who i am, i dont care what they say but check urself, should it not be about who u are and not what u are?
TOUGH SKIN ~ My friend Blaze taught me this, i used to be, maybe still am a sensitive person. I would care about what pple think, about how i looked to pple and if i thought i was not liked i automatically thot something was wrong with me. SO FAIL, Blaze thot me to DO ME, u cant please the world and thats hardcore truth. U try A - Z they wld be a complaint about each one. So each day i think of those in my corner, cuz ull av dem even if its one but u r guaranteed a true one at d end.
LIVE & LET LIVE ~ Too many thots, worries, when? Why? what? but if we keep wondering and asking questions, days turn into nights, into months, years and u are still stoked on the same questions. U wld never realize time had passed. ME TIME is very important, take out time and DO U, shop!!! u worked hard so spoil yourself a lil bit. Take time out and treat yourself, a spa treatment a vacation whatever it is, learn to enjoy urself.
FOLLOW UR HEART ~ This is a bit tricky cuz i av had friends debate this particular saying. As for me i follow my heart i dont care if i am rejected, hurt, or scorned but at least i ff and got a reaction Negative yes but i did. Whats the point of saying shouldacoulda? What if the feeling was mutual, what if it was an infatuation u thot it was love, then u never speak, but wait for the day God had ordained for ur Mirage of a thought while u deny yourself of others and chase a shadow. Life is a risk, Love is beautiful, Attention is bliss, go for it, dont grow old and be caged in a box all ur life.
RESPECT THE CHOICE ~ I am referring to relationships and other forms of hook ups here. Its hard but i av come to understand that we get too choked on our emotions, we dont see what God is telling us. We string along in a relationship and wen it finally blows in your face others are to be blamed. Life is hard as it is, if someone decides to walk away let them, if you make them stay, it becomes a drag!
TO BE CONTINUED
I am a bit tired at the moment and cant wait to be outta d office. ill continue with this soon.....
Love u all and thanks for always stopping by, i see u lot
Mwah xoxoxoxoxo
TejuMola

E!N!O!U!G!H!

2010-03-17T14:06:00.008-04:00

Yesterday! in Unison the youths of my motherland came together in FEET, voice and mind as we all said Enough is Enough!!.
March 16th at the Eagles Square Abuja Nigeria, the leaders got a prelude to a show thats about to run for a real long time.
The youths are slowly taking over the country from their hands and they better keep looking at the clock , cuz their time is running out.
This is no longer about a plea, we are not begging them anymore, we are telling them DIALOGUE with us, look us in the eyes as ur heart conceals ur evil deeds and tell us more lies........
It was a peaceful rally, we the youths decided to apply the LITERACY we were schooled with, others on the other hand, doubted if this rally was going to be of any effect?? well, like a friend of mine Henry Okelue said and i quote "We rather would march and fail than not march at all" there is no harm in trying.
We sit all day on our lazy selves, complaining of the problems, the discomfort yet when pple rise up to the occassion to make a change, these set of doubting Thomases are the first ones to rain on the parade.
We proved them wrong yesterday, the celebrities, media personalities, tomorrow's leaders all stood at the gate of the NATIONAL ASSEMBLY and demanded Hon. Bankole come out to speak to them. After he promised to address the youths, he never showed up,but the pride was the solidarity as they stood at the gates waiting.
Well, the waiting was not in vain, the gates of the National Assembly was opened and the youths marched in, and many thanks to the likes of Uncle Dele Momodu, Omotola Jalade- Ekeinde, Stella Damasus and co who used their stardom for a positive cause.
My friends and colleagues marched in to the National Assembly, and I say to them take in that air, inhale it and sense it becuase when we all get to these appointed seats this is not the same filthy air we want to inhale ever again.
March 16th 2010, the leaders saw for the first time, what the youths are capable of doing, they saw their greedy lives flash before their eyes, as the clock ticks away, their days are numbered......
We just started, the revolution is on, the killings must stop, the corruption must stop, the greed , the lies, the bad governance we are tired of it.
We are tired of not enjoying the basic amenities, the necessities and not luxury, tired of incompetencies, tired of being comfortable in our misery, its not supposed to be a way of life. No we refuse to accept this as our Nigeria.
Our time has come and we need you to clean this mess before you leave, do not worry about the politics, power and finance to get us there, we have one thing y'all never had! UNION!!!!!
To my fellow Nigerians, comrades We are comfortable in this discomfort forced on us , we were blinded and now we see , let us not continue in this discomfort...............................
Arise pple lets fight for what is ours JUSTICE, PEACE, A RIGHT TO LIVE & LIFE

I AM PROUDLY NIGERIAN

J! O! S!

2010-03-15T18:50:00.004-04:00

The screams, the pleas, the cries so much chaos in the air..........
Then the thundering noise, scary and deafening shots fired......
Then iron against iron, slicing noise, blood spills, everywhere............
O lord in this ill hour of the night this town has turned upside down..........
JOS, this used to be a beautiful city, back in the day when we were growing up, my parents would tell of this place like some resort on its own.
The weather was different, it was a peaceful city and we hardly heard any evil happenings in and around JOS
In the 21st century, this beautiful city has turned to a nightmare, the peace is long lost, chaos and dis array....
Where did we go wrong? what is the hatred about? RELIGION they say, i refuse to believe, what drives a man to be an animal in his thinking and less of an animal in his action?
You want me to believe in your GOD, or the mirage of what you are being told?
The MUSLIMS r unfortunately the ones going about killing Christians....
I wont say all MUSLIMS r EVIL but their fanatical insanity has cost us PEACE.....
I bleed in my heart as i remember the pictures i saw, how evil pple av chosen to be.........
Last week was a massacre in Jos, where WOMEN & KIDS were butched..........
They were brutally attacked, and what got me was not just the pictures.........
The first was the attack on WOMEN & KIDS, not to say MEN deserved to die.............
Secondly they were not shot, they were axed and butched to pieces..............
I cried as i saw those pictures, those kids with brains split into splatters.............
My heart bled and still bleeds, i heard of the wars but seeing those pictures!!!!!
I was angered at how ignorant i had been, how can they just take kids and kill them?
What do they know tell me pls? Maybe i am missing something or naive to all of this?
Whatever the case may be, children are of ZERO TOLERANCE - off limits.......
I wonder how these men go back home, eat with their blood stained hands........
Go home to their wives and kids, look them in the eye and tell them they love dem
As each axe they brought down on those kids and women hang over them.........
I have made sure each day as i remember i say a word even if i cant pray JOS,
God sees my heart, hears me i would do anything to help the needy, the less priviledged
This could have happened to anyone or any city, pple get angry and begin a riot........
I am grateful friends and family are safe and sound, we never appreciate one another enough.........
There is so much Envy, anger amongst ourselves, we choke on Hatred and die bitter........
I tell people all the time life is short, too short for H8 never get tired of appreciating d ones u love....
Everyday we walk past pple and never knw what haunts their heart, the sadness they conceal
Some need a smile, a hug, a warm greeting, words of encouragement .........
They go a long way, feed the hungry, cloth the naked, help the elderly............
Be a blessing to someone, tell someone you love them, make sure u GIVE
Pray for the victims of Jos , it cld be anyone of us, dey dont deserve to die......
Those Kids had a lot to live for, God knws better we can't question his motives...........
One last thing ill say is those murderers would pray to die but death wld run far away......
When the time comes for them to face the music of their ungodly and inhumane actions.
JOS ON MY MIND! LORD TAKE OVER ♥

~TejuMola

VALS DAY 2010

2010-02-24T11:42:00.000-05:00

So my lovelies.... hope u all had a wonderful Valentine day, mine started beautiful ended pretty ugly but dont ask, lol. I was alone at home, my sis was with hers in ATL and i njoyed the peace & quiet. I watched movies, drank some wine as well as Tweet.
Anyway i wished for many other things to have happened for that day but was glad with the turn out either ways. I had my wonderful twam call me up, Neso, Ann, Chika & Osagie twas fun and wished i was hanging out with them, but for the love they showed it was worth calling a Vals day to remember.
Trying to see what else happened, yeah sunday night crept in , and Monday starts its journey arrrgggh! that was my thot as i found solace in my wine bottle. I love white wine a whole lot, got a bottle at a friend's 30th party the day before and its the sweetest i av tasted so far SUTTER HOME.................................
So, the Monday madness begins again but as d night fell i knew i missed him, i missed us, gosh! LDR is a pain in the behind for real but soon i guess..........
Anyways as i hit my pillows ready to sleep i think of the cold, the commute, 5 days of doing nothing and there goes my week.............

TejuMola

ST. VALENTINE

2010-02-11T07:10:00.004-05:00

Hi there......
Hope everyone is doing gr8? I know its the Lovers wknd and everyone is hoping , wishing and binging on ST. VALENTINES DAY. Oh! well i am not saying i am not a believer in vals day and although Guys seems to think girls r just fronting saying i dont think Vals day is a big deal cuz they r SINGLE..lol.
Guys cld be mean lol, well i think its different for pple and frankly its the world that has made it a big deal, its just a day lovers do something amazing for their loved ones i believe.
Here in the States...everything is RED, if the water cld be turned to red i am sure it wld, the train stations all packed with men going home with bouquet of flowers, red bags, wine and all sorts. hmm oh well! lets see my idea of a perfect valentine day bless me with cards, i am a sucker for cards not like i dont like gifts but cards just do it for me.
I love words, they reach deep into my soul, dunno why but i think its more for me ur unspoken words in a card. A perfume, shopping spree wld be gr8 but come in, kiss me, cuddle and hand me cards as i open and read them.....it bares ur soul to me.
I know some pple might be like o pls cards r thrown away, after that day its useless but il tell u this i av cards i av kept for ten years, i once had a boyfriend who i spoilt silly with cards, i was cleaning his room one day and i was almost in tears at the beautiful cards all packed in a bag, all the cards i had ever sent him in 3 yrs and i wished i cld re - address them to myself lol they were just too beautiful.
I av to give it to him though, he has been the only one to feed my insatiable desire for cards, guys just dont try to even swim in our fantasy just one time. I am a bagful with that, Cards r a big deal for me ill take it over a shopping spree, not like the shopping spree cannot be scheduled for another time though QQ.
Guys love to keep it all in, they dont want to sound weak or cheesy but i like to get t that side of dem no matter how unfeeling they appear, with all my ramblings said i am wishing all the lovers out there the best Vals. day ever.....Ladies if u av no val love urself and be happy dont be sad or all cooked up in the house or on ur bed crying. Guys well i am sure 99% of u who dont av vals r quite happy u dont , but for those of u who wished u had....work towards aving urs next year and celebrate love in amazing ways.
What ill be doing that day Feb. 14? Ill prolly go to church in the morning, come back call my lover(s) spend the day tweeting, listening to music and yeah might get some wine down my system.
This is to my special Valentine u knw who u r I love u and wish i was cuddled up in bed with u right now but .mwah!
My dearest Obi our 7pm phone date i await >:)
Happy Vals. day pple do sumtin amazing for ur loved ones, friends , parents and be thankful to God u av the heart to love and embrace love.

TejuMola

L:O:V:E

2010-02-04T12:24:00.008-05:00

Its described in many languages, many tongues.......
Many books, movies and poems have coined their fame wiv it!
I have lived almost half a score and had love shown me. yet.....
Each time, a clear diference between the last and present...........
I walked the streets of this life, run the paths of this world
Seeking to knw this beauty the gods described LOVE as..........
I read the myths, Imagined their truth and sought its meaning..........
Each time, gave me a surprising meaning and confused I became
Fantasy became a friend and misery my neighbour.........
Days i could not fantazise, misery was glad to be of company...........
Am i in another life, do these pple not knw this beauty?
Am i living a lie, is there no such thing as this wonder....
This feeling, that everyone seems to talk about but....
No nothing about it?
Love to some means SEX, to some its SELFISHNESS
To some its OBSESSION, to some its JEALOUSY
To some its PROTECTION, to some its MONEY
To some it GIFTS, to some its CHEATING.........
Love means different things to different pple.......
There is no more the undefiled pleasure, expression of love.......
Its all a game, guarded, measured and calculated..........
I was called naive, cuz i was fearless with love.........
I cant quantify this feeling, i cant measure it,
I cant make sense of it, my brain is frozen...........
Love is supposed to make u feel that way, intoxicated...............
Love i believe is KIND, its CARING, its DOTING/NUTURING
Its FORGIVENESS, its not a GHOST OF THE PAST,
Its EXCRUCIATING, its OVERWHELMING, its INSANITY
all in a positive way..................
Love is just this feeling u cant explain or make sense of........
It has u doing ordinary things in EXTRA ordinary ways..........
It gives u COMFORT, PROTECTION, HAPPNIESS, GLOW........
PEACE, CONFIDENCE, most of all a THANKFUL heart................
Love unabashed, its the most celebrated in the medevial times..........
Now, we r scared of its realness, its rawness, we run from it...........
Love is not for the weak hearts nor the doubtful ones..........
Love is understood only by a few, appreciated by the GIFTED
Reciprocated by the ones born lucky...............
Love can be found in friendship not just relationships...............
Love is what makes u believe u av somewhere to crawl to
Love is what makes u believe u av that one shoulder to cry on
Love is what makes u smile when ur world is cloudy
Love is not ur lover, Love is ur friend.............
Lovers r mistaken for love bearers, how untrue............
Ur lover loves for a season, ur friend(Soulmate) loves thru all seasons
I have found love thru the oddest of places and rarest of people...........
Love is a beautiful thing, its most beautiful when we dont guard it
Love regardless of a broken heart, cuz thats d best cure ............
Love is effortless, its an overflow that u cant control.....
Love not in fear but in faith and fun..........
The moment u try to bend love ur way, it snaps out of ur fingers.........

~TejuMola

JUST THERE!!!

2010-01-30T08:54:00.004-05:00

Hey pple,
Howdy? welcome to another end of the month...guesss this is how the countdown begins to another Easter, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year. Hope everyone has been gr8, cuz i av been and its all thanks to God.
School has started in earnest and its no joke but we r doing it, my first paper was graded and lets just say i still got the brains (lol). Each week unfolds with its assingments & expectations, this week its a team presentation and i love my team members! phew! compared to my last class o no this is a cool one. Anyways that aside, my personal ish!! not much has been going on with me, same ol same ol been a bit boring but cooking up stuff in my head. I said earlier i was writing sum juicy stuff well soon ill let u in on it...just that these days too much typing is numbing the finger.
I am on twitter catch ur girl on there, cuz i am a shameful twitterholic and i love it, its therapeutical and more enjoyable cuz i have the best twam ever. i keep talking about them, they might not even knw their worth but its like this.....U knw wen u think u av no one who cares or sees u, ur fam got ur back anyday and i say so cuz Twitter cld be a ridiculous show of annoying fame and immature brains. My pple we r the coolest ever so if u want to knw hop on the ride and ff @teyjuhmohlah on twitter thats urs truly.!
My wknd is sorta quiet, staying in watching movies and late afternoon have to read sum chapter on my team assignment, all ill say is i better get that money! :)
Well february i am hoping wld be better and it has to be the lovers definitely wont let us hear it! St. Valentines has started hovering, lol.
Have a good wknd y'all and stay blessed! Mwah
Sorry i am boring just had to blog its been a while..................
~TejuMola

NOW!!!!

2010-01-20T05:39:00.011-05:00

Hey,
Hope everyone is in gr8 health? Its also an opportunity as well to be grateful for life and the lil tins in life we take for granted. The crisis in countries like HIATI and my mother land NIGERIA (religious crisis in Jos) gives u a perspective of life and time u never imagined before.
Its been gruesome on my spirit to watch the news especially about HIATI, my spirit was broken and i shed tears shamelessly as i watched kids lay dead in hundreds , i see new borns on drips, in the filth and shambles of the EARTHQUAKE.........Babies have no clue i couldn't take it gosh! its disheartening.
As CNN reporters help and report the news, they reported on the babies running out of formulas, and their mothers have to feed dem with MILK which is not healthy for their system as new borns. Well they end up Purging, getting dehydrated and pass out! BABIES?? I urge everyone to do what they can this is more about humanity not about RACE or WEALTH, imagine it was ur child!
I keep praying for them , and then i reflect on my country and the crisis in Jos...God i dont knw what to say we need in NIGERIA but i knw U r the center of it, we need a clean sweep, we need a washing and flushing out of the bad eggs. We the youths all sit and complain, yet get frustrated at nothing being done but WHAT CAN WE DO?
Our hands r tied as much as we try to break free, we speak up and get scared for our lives or families and loved ones..it happened during Ababcha's reign and the same goons are the ones still leading! God give us our country back, things r looking up with the youths of the country we need u to take us thru cuz its a long walk from where we desire!
Today is not really a day for me to blog about Nigeria i wld soon, but my heart is with my motherland no matter how far away from it i am.
On a lighter note, its ben gr8 so far, God has been merciful and good to me and i dont deserve it but i can only say THANK U to God.
A new semester has started for me, not sure about my instructor yet i av had 2 classes but really not feeling this semester and i think i knw why...................
I want to go home, i miss home and just tired of this hustle (sigh) but home as well has its challenges oh well! God in u i trust to make this journey a smooth ride even when it seems bumpy!
TWAMILY....yes i heart this special pple with all, facebook, twitter has been a force of love, more beauty than Ugliness has come from this social websites and for me its been twitter.
A place where like minds meet, share, inspire and encourage the other thats what my twamily (Family) is about, i cant wait to go see them in July and just celebrate love & friendship.......Shout at to Osagie, Chika, Ann, Dupe, James, Neso, Dammy, Skittonia (life of the party) Damani, and a special one to my new friend i av made for life Kaelo.....I heart u babes, thank u all for the love!
Lets make this yr 2010 one to remember 7/10...........the time is NOW!
Live for today and let God worry about tomorrow!!

TejuMola~

TITHES & BLESSINGS............

2010-01-14T10:19:00.009-05:00

Hey,
I know been gone for a while, sorry faithful ones just been all over the place. School started and other lil things along the side. Hope everyone is swell, hows 2010 coming so far? I said it already the hype was going to die in a week or so seems we all have resolved back into the same routine, no??? Hope not cuz this is the beginning of the year and the perfect time to set your goals and walk towards them.
I was reading Open Heavens a few mins ago and there it said, the one who has no goal seems to have too much time in his hands while the goal- setter has little time to attain his goals cuz he is managing it well.
Let's not be like the former, do something different this year, that you would look back in December 2010 and give urself a pat on the shoulder.
So my post title Tithes yes, i am so excited cuz the first time in a very long time i gave my tithe in church last week sunday, everytime i remember i am proud of myself....I think the time had come for me to realize it was my obligation to tithe and not at my pleasure. It felt good and y it did?
Everytime i wanted to in the past, i had a bill to pay, i had something to do or it just never was enough, sometimes i wanted to act on faith but i was not convicted too, but i hia it every sermon PAY YOUR TITHES, my mum hammered into my ears PAY YOUR TITHES, after a while it stopped being a sermon to me, i thought maybe God was talking to me thru these mediums.....
I cant keep asking and not receive, yet go back and try to lash God when i sit on what i have, thinking of fixing my hair, buying clothes & shoes and not even think of 20 dollars lest alone my tithe.
About Nov 2009 a friend of mine challenged me, she invited me to a programme, we had been talking previously as we rode to church, she told me she had nothing in her account, i was going to give her some money but we had arrived at church. As the programme reached its end, we were asked to put our offerings in and i saw her give all she had, which she told me earlier if it were coins she emptied all cuz God saw her heart. DANG!!!!!!
I always wanted to give an offering anytime i am in church, but when i am left with coins in my bag, i feel its too little for GOD which i am right about, but my friend gave all with love in her heart, cuz she had to offer to GOD, so while she thought.....God for today this is what i av but i give with love, i am thinking of status??? a big wake up call for me and i vowed to never ever complain or worry when i had to offer anything to GOD.
So church was great and when it was time to offer i gave my tithe with joy afterwards and a big picture is God has blessed me more, so i have no excuse.
I just wanted to share this with u all and hopeful that some of this experiences of mine which to some might sound lame, or Un-necessary, would help or inspire one person someday.
The great lessons of life i have learnt are testimonies and Diaries of famous writers, or movies or interviews......so if they affect and inspire me , i hope i do so to someone. I have a testimony already of encouraging a new friend i made...she read my posts and we hooked up on twitter. She was going through an emotional time, I could be there for her not because i am a relationship expert but because I had gone thru what she did and God brought me thru it. I must av been bitter then and asked GOD O why me? but if today my experience gave me the wisdom to help someone thru hers then its a blessing in disguise, and worth it to share!
Its my calling to help & encourage others and its a passion ill take to my grave......
My heart goes out to the families in Haiti and i am moved cuz of the little kids who need shelter, food , drugs , pls whatever we can lets try to help and pray for them in this trying time.
http://www.yele.org/ or u can text YELE to 501 501 its $5 and u can send about 6 times, nothing is too little.
BE A BLESSING THIS YEAR & WATCH GOD BLESS U.
~TejuMola

FIRST SUNDAY

2010-01-03T09:21:00.007-05:00

It feels good doesn't it to see the beginning of another year?? I am excited and although everyone was all gassed up about the holidays & the resolutions one thing we need to see in hind sight is the maturity that is required of us as we grow into another year, birthdays wld be celebrated so i believe a year older, a step wiser.........2009 was a gr8 year for many as well as a sad one for others but overall we cannot underestimate the good that came out of 09.
Its 2010 now and instead of storming my brain trying to come up with a resolution, i av decided to set goals for myself, targets and parameters.All these to help me develop myself, grow and get out of that box of cant or wont, not sure, maybe! its time to put ur heart in what u believe in and go for it.....thats my motto this year.
Rather than spend time on unnecessary things, get worked up over petty stuff or engage in anything not yielding positivity for me, ill spend time getting closer to what God has designed for me, i am discovering the talents he has put in me and i think i am going to get close to writing a book or be a daily inspirational writer for who i dont knw yet but peole who need to live again , who have lost hope, who need a lil love, who need to knw God is not out of reach he is right there u just believe and open ur arms.
I am enjoying writing fiction , and i am a sucker for romance & passion as well so soon ill be introducing u all to a new blog i av which is just where i travel in my mind, inspired by couples, books, movies and a definite essence of myself.
God has been amazing to me and although i av not been deserving, i av resolved to stop asking for forgiveness, rather be thankful for grace and stop doing the same old things, i need to grow and cant keep sitting expecting ill walk. I am grateful for the new friends i av made thru the amazing networking of twitter and facebook and even though i almost got lost into it at one point i am glad i av re-focused on whats important and so help me God ill be sharing my experience on here as much as i can.
School begins tomorrow , not looking forward to it but i am walking and working with a new attitude it cant break me, i own this and ill be giving u a piece of my day at school for sure. I knw there wld be days ill not sound as re assuring as i sound now, i am only human but i hope and pray i never forget God is a prayer away.
Have a beautiful year ahead....xoxoxoxo
~TejuMola

LOVING U

2010-01-02T22:55:00.003-05:00

Its been a while...............
I fell in love with u as hard as i fought not falling
I cld not believe cupid shot me his arrow, more amazed at how fast i fell again
Do u not learn?? Cupid has shot one too many and they end up broken!
I resisted falling but i fell anyways, ur Charm was irresistable....
This time like many others I fell hard but with a difference,
I fell with reserved strength to rise when cupid left a hole in my heart.....
I was ready to laugh at cupid when it decided it was time to leave,
Ill be fine cuz u wont be the first to leave..................
All these thoughts in my head i loved u still
Days gone by, months pass and Years have rolled by,
Cupid's arrow slowly reveals its beauty
The reflections are captivating to the eyes..........
I fight it , but can u fight urself????
I try not to look in ur eyes cuz i see my future but scared its a mirage
I try not to hold u for long, cuz like a ghost i predict ull become
I try not to think of you, even though my thoughts cant process anything else
I try not to dream of you, cuz waking up is like torture and ill rather remain in trance
I try not to believe love found me........
Loving u flows like a rhythm, sweet and pleasing to the ears
Loving u makes life simple and optimistic
Loving u gives me reason to smile
Loving u has taught me maturity
Loving u has blessed me
Loving u is what ill choose to do in another life!!
I av found the one to whom i am ALL to.........

~ TejuMola

HEY

2009-12-28T15:08:00.004-05:00

What a coincidence its exactly 2 weeks i came on ere to blog......so much activities i guess and eeerm scouts honor i av been kicking it with the twitter family.
How was the holidays for you guys? i had a nice time thru it all, ever thankful to God for his greatness and splendor, I have been great and i am going to give you a run down of how my holiday was...............
The 24th i came in to work even though many were off, and las gidi was cooking hot already with events and it just made me miss home and all d fun, my boss came into work and let me go home at 3pm , yippee that was big of them, i went mini shopping and then headed home. I got home and my room was in such a chaotic state which was very unlike me, but i had been sleeping real late getting up laaaaaaaaaaaate, so i end up rushing and taking a cab to work which was becoming very unhealthy for my pocket.
Anyways i got home, cleaned out my room changed the arrangement and set its mood to a real jazzy setting, if only the ONE was around :( ok back to the real world, i got stuff out of the freezer, cleaned the dishes and cooked, JOLLOF RICE, CHICKEN STEW AND EGUSI by the time i was done it was 3am , i crashed like a log of wood and i knew xmas morning was going to be well spent in bed.
The 25th i opened my eyes to the great day of our lord, thankful for life, i started receiving calls and sent out text messages to my family & friends...called the important people in my life and stayed in bed. It felt good xmas was on a Friday, i was looking forward to the long weekend, i had a few stops to make xmas house parties. It was a cold xmas though but it was nice and finally after all the festivities, i found my bed and was joyous it was saturday.
The 26th woke up and sat with the TV bollywood channel, but unfortunately nothing good was showing, den my girl calls me and says our long awaited movie date was happening live yay! My buddie Bibi thats d only one person i enjoy anything with, cuz we can make it thru a boring situation as long as we av each other, lol.
So we decide 3 movies tonight our usual ritual, we head out and got tickets for Sherlock Holmes, Robert Downey & Jude Law r such a fave, it was a lovely movie as well, then we head out to the Avatar room, we were so bummed the 3D screen room started early and late and to kill time we just decided to do the Normal screen! It was ok in my opinion maybe cuz i slept thru sum of the unfolding of the movie, but i caught up later and apparently twas's Bibi's movie of the night.
All this while i was tweeting, crazy me enjoying all the live tweets from those grooving in las gidi et all. Bibi got tired of me lol. The 3rd movie was Its Complicated glad i watched this movie, apparently when Avatar was over we had to wait for the movie screen rooms to be cleaned out, our movie starts in 45 mins 12:45 and it was 12:00 rather than hang outside, we go in to start the move Armored, i am glad we left cuz i have never been in a room filled with the tackiest ghetto mess ever, 3 girls kept mouthing off in bullocks lingua and i am thinking can u shut the hell up , u aint the only one in the room, giggling about guys and all its no wonder they get knocked up and hit the welfare later gosh! i was pissed.
12:55 we headed out hoping to kill the adverts, we got in to the Screen room of it's complicated and sorry to say but u cld tell an urban audience from a trashy one! The movie was nice i really did enjoy it and i have to say MERYL STREEP in my opinion is d best in her time, sophisticated, principled and graceful! i aspire to have such grace as she does.
So about 2.30am ish movie night was over and we headed home, nice day in my opinion ill like to have more days like this day! at about 3.45am we called it a night!
The 27th was Sunday how we made plans for church but, we were to knackered to go, we slept ate and eventually headed back to Bibi' s on the notion she was coming back to sleep over until duty called (WIFELY)
yep she is a married woman, and hubby was out of town but came back in Sunday night, twas a bummer for me but i had to understand, got home watched Keeping up with the Kardashinas with a bowl of cereal and fell asleep!
Today!! Not a Monday person, getting ready for work several ideas were creeping in my mind, for now i wont let too much out but i av been writing, i av a blog which i strictly just try and put to work what scenes play in my head and surprisingly its been going on well!
Anyways its been a long chat and ill be signing out and letting you all know soon what is going on for 2010.
Peace & love
Mola

SEMESTER OVER

2009-12-14T09:32:00.004-05:00

Phewww! yep today is monday and i am like a kid on a bouncer what!!! School has been crazily off the radar.
I feel gr8 coming into the office today and knowing i have no assignment to go over or submit. Off for 3 weeks to enjoy the holidays and boy does it feel good.
So whats everyone up to this xmas season? Urs truly i wld be catching up on a whole lotta movies and books i had not had the time to read all through these 3 months, spend more/more/more quality with God cuz pple he has been good to me.
I dont knw why, cuz i believe i offended him more these last couple of weeks but GRACE ABOUNDS, he just keeps making me see his love is in describable, its almost as though i could look him in the face and say i dont deserve ur love write me off pls. Do u knw how much more guilty u feel, knowing all u av done and he just says come to me , lay it all at my feet, i love u regardless, just promise to let me help u? GOD IS AWESOME and i am humbled he has kept me thus far.
I am not going home this yr :( wish i could it would have been nice to meet so many new friends i have made over twitter, its been a gr8 experience and though at some point it felt as though i was loosing myself to it , i am glad i am back and better and my thots are geared towards making others happy and forgetting the carelessness it prompts us to...............
Oh well! nothing much right now, everyone is fine i am grateful for that, i am good and hope to be better and yes i have found a home church which i believe God had put me there for, my friend " Tammy Dacosta saidTeju never let sunday meet u at home, be of service to the lord" i am glad i hearkened to that warning and not wait till 2010 to start a resolution , All changes i av resolved to make starts from now 2009 and it gets better in the year 2010.
I am so excited for this coming year cuz i knw its the year God has been holding my breath for.........y'all be safe and always remember Live life don't endure it, its tough a times but keep living
Peace & love
Mola!

THE GOD OF GRACE ♥♥

2009-12-09T11:42:00.005-05:00

I am ere today not by might , not because i deserve to be but God's unfailing GRACE. i truly know i dont deserve it but he has honoured me. I look through the year and indeed he has been faithful and i realize the day i slip and not reverence him the devil feeds on it, i am ashamed at sum things i av allowed, i am disappointed but i am grateful for waking up to correct my mistakes, right my wrongs and go back on my knees and communicate with GOD.
Where would i be if not for him? my existence is a wonder to me because hmmm i would have given up on me a long time ago, but God uses true pple to reach out in word and in deed i av been blessed anything short of this statement is an abomination whaaaat? I am still breathing, thru everything going on in my life, thru everything happening in the world, through every stupid mistake i have made, through every sin i av committed with intent and without, pls someone praise God for me.
I am moved to share this cuz everyday God shows me he is just there waiting for me to get off my silly butt and TRUST him, y is dat hard? I wake up and start and say yes God its all u , then somewhere along the way i loose myself to things not even worthy to be named. I AM SORRY lord for IGNORANCE!!!
I cant explain y u love me lord but i am so mad at myself for taking it for granted. Lord u knw where i hurt for what i have done but i can only come back to you cuz u are all i av got.
U may wonder y i am going on & on, only God and I can understand this dialogue, Lord i cant confess word for word but pls i share my pain & guilt and ask u pls not take ur eyes off me, pls dont shut me out, i am grateful u av not given up on me, i would av given up on myself, but pls i crawl to u, cuz my legs cant hold the weight of my heart, as the devil laughs and scorns behind my ears telling me i wont make it to u , telling me u r done with me, in pain & disbelief i crawl to u, soaked in my tears, engulfed in my grief and as he keeps smearing me with all my sins telling me nothing can cleanse me this time.......
Lord i close my eyes and see my way through your ocean of purity and i swim towards GRACE.
I love u lord and i am grateful!

THE LOVELY END, A LOVELIER BEGINNING!!

2009-12-04T10:06:00.004-05:00

The year went by so fast or do i say too fast, January and now we r in December (Smiles) i remember the promise i made, the change i said i would make and i look back and ask did i achieve any? Surprisingly so i did a whole lot.
2009 blessed me with opportunities, discoveries, life's lessons but most of all this year gave me the heart of a lion. I fought for what i wanted, i took the bullets by the haters, i made lemonades out of the lemons life threw at me, but in all God held my hand even though occasionally he smacked my butt when i was out of line, it gave me a thick skin to walk this stage called life.
So now December is ere again and i am looking back, this year was not bad after all, this year i went home (Nigeria), went to serve my country (NYSC) had loads of fun and definitely an experience to remember, seeing family was gr8, I made up my mind to stay back but God presented me an opportunity out of a miserable situation...i started my masters and i am too elated at God's wonders.
Who wld av thot just wen the recession kicked in my my employers felt they needed to downsize i wld be top choice but when God handles ur battles who dares rise against you?? I became an asset to the company instead of a liability, although i decided i was going home, God told me i was not done with the U.S.
So here I am doing it and loving it, a lot of family & friends got married and had babies and its been a year of celebration as well as mourning for others....I celebrate those who rejoice with meeting their life partners and birthing babies as well as mourn with those who might av lost a dear one both take raw emotions and I hope we realize to be grateful every time we remember we r living by grace and not by our might.
Life has been splendid so far, and it got a lil spicy when i joined twitter thanks to Rita Dominic ( our very own talented Nigerian actress) I love this lady she is down to earth, i wish others wld take a cue from her.
Twitter has been my latest cheat meal, its Purged me, gave me warmth, left me cold all a lil of everything but i am grateful for the wonderful pple i av met and some r stamped in my heart, I met the lucky man making my girl cheeks go gaga, my wonderful blogs ville fam,Ms. Cheeks, Bagucci, Solomonsydelle, Myne whitman, wonderful and inspirational bloggers and i just got a new fam on blogger, christopher jay....yay!. I cannot forget my dearest Abuja crew, Amara, Henry & Emmanuel each with a blessed character of their own.
Michael the very own talented ruggedy we go way back and i send a special shout out to him for his sweetness, gr8 friend of mine, IDJA never judge pple by what u hia from others..down 2 earth, a bruda who struggled and became the No.1 producer in Nigeria, I respect him and he has been a testimony of *Dont Judge a book by its cover he makes u feel close to him even though u r miles away and might just never meet :)* there r a lot of others who i appreciate but these special ones have made an impact not to be forgotten...I love u all and hope d new year brings u the best ever.
So, looking onto the New year i hope to come back with more for u and spend more time with u guys, cuz 2010 is definitely kicking up a notch so much is going to happen, i can feel d energy already and a dash of spice to heat things up i take a cue form my girl cheeks we wld keep y'all updated, cuz this is home and ur warmth is second to none. ♥

Mola

BROKEN GLASS

2009-11-30T11:26:00.000-05:00

Hey pple,
Ok so here it is, I messed up a potential good friendship and i dont think i can ever get it back, i don't knw what to do. been trying to concentrate but i cant, i av apologized, written epistles and i just look pitiful at this point. Gosh! i wish i had just let sleeping dogs lie but dont u get curious once in a while? i think i am going crazy....
Men i so hate how this turned out and i wish ull really see my heart wen i say i am truly sorry, i dont even have the will power to write anymore right now, thinking of getting off twitter as well.....tink i just need some space.
Nolar i wish u were ere i am a mess right now!

NO CLUE

2009-11-26T06:33:00.000-05:00

Where is all this coming from???
One question why do i care so much seriously? I am so mad at myself right now......
Why is my heart this way, why cant i be a B+tch? they get the respect, love and a whole lotta package....
When u show u put ur heart out, it is just stomped on, ur pride is hurt and it feels like its ur doing.......
So all of a sudden, I am the changed one?
I am tired of these repetitions, and right now i am wondering y we are meant to have these so called
COMMITMENTS.
I am not scared to be my own person, but making me feel like sumfin is wrong wiv me or my reasoning???
Because:
I am holding on to what u told me, a while back asking me to Let u love me......
We sit and let it all slip away? because i av dreamt of my future so much with .......
Now it feels like i am hovering/nagging/desperate?
How about i let my fantasy die, and just accept reality.
What else am i meant to do? pls enlighten me......
I am tired, and already i can tell i am rewinding to 07
How else am i to prove i want u not need u,......
This game is very unfair and the high it takes u is how low it drops u
After all the quest and dire need to have me, i am now the object of ur stress......
I am shutting the door gradually, i am tired of opening doors that keep getting shut
Maybe ill shut it forever, cuz its not fair pple not as committed as i am
Get the respect, love and all while i av to grovel for it???
I have no clue anymore and i think i am tired of putting the pieces together...............
It shld not be this hard!

HEALTH IS WEALTH!!!!

2009-11-12T11:11:00.007-05:00

Hey y'all
How r u doing? (sound like a wendy williams interview) lol!! I am great and so happy with the past 2 days God is awesome pple. Ok so for a week now i av been having dis dialogue in my head about getting in shape believe me this is like the 100th time (smiles). i was thinking of getting a treadmill or the Wii fitness sports game box, GYM? i av one right down my office and at the shopping center 5/10 mins from my office but arrrrgggghhh! i just dont GO. I hia u say i am not serious (lol) not the case, the commute to my house is like some 1/2 hrs on the bus and train and driving 15 mins tops 20mins but sadly i dont drive yet, and wen the weather turns cold/rainy it just aint pretty believe me.
Its no excuse but the motivation just wont come, then home i av a boxing bag, and a tummy ball which i VISIT once a while, so whats my problem i dont knw honestly i av tried every diet or starvation, the only times i remember loosing weight was in 2003/2004 and den 2006 but since den hmm! hmm! hmm! the pounds keep adding up. Naturally i am not a skinny girl right from birth i was the biggest baby in the hospital, i grew up as teenager in clothes of size 12's and 14 my family is blessed with curves and i seemed to get the extra backside, not complaining its some pples curse i turned to my blessing, u notice how i said sum pples's curse, cuz there is nothing i av not tried if u go for a family reunion with me, my aunts and cousins are identified with that, even my DAD! so pls dont hate .*Giggles*
I relocated to the United States in 2005 still contemplating if it was d brightest move cuz i miss home but we all have to get the hustle on right? Of course i was warned stay away from the pancakes, syrups , americans love food its so attractive bla bla bla! well they never lied, funny thing is half of their food i cant take, I am Lactose intolerant of their milk, mac and cheese a NO NO, pizzas not a cheese fan, burgers the meat dont taste like Mr. Biggs and Chinese aint TFC *Tastee fried Chicken* and d biggest shocker i do not like pancakes nor do i go out to eat so where did all these love handles stem from??
I love BREAD, i was home July '09 gosh those Agege bread hawkers knew me, brown and soft i wish they had dem here :( but they make up for it with all the bagels, sweet bread, cinnamon rolls yeah teju not good! then rice.. thats a sunday ritual so imagine 4 yrs of rice sundays and 3 times a week yeah... i though so too, i av another forte this chinese restaurant by my job ROYAL JADE gosh fried rice & shrimps no veggies or eggs xtra spicy wooooh! its divine but wen i get to the last grain of rice the oil is enough to fry eggs for 2 weeks and lastly some days i am just down, lonely missing my boo and i splurge with Ice cream at that moment i dont care how big my derriere gets i just want to feel good but few hrs later calories packed and the deed cannot be undone.
So now this is kinda of a rough break down on my foods what i love but my time table for eating is way off, i skip meals, binge late watching good movies oh it feels good (killing me lol) and den my metabolism is slow so with all these said, the past few days myself and my girl BIBI we av been talking abt getting back in shape but we wld be conversing on burger or fries , yeah we r silly! but we av decided it is to be done.
1am last night after watching the Wendy Williams show, i was in bed really thinking of getting my treadmill and i cld hear my heart racing , i said God seriously i want to do it this time, just as i was about to switch off the tv set i saw my guide and saw *The Tyra Show* well its tyra apart from screaming et al what can she possible say i clicked on oxygen and guess what *the episode of keeping my shape in shape* a coincidence? I smiled up at God and watched the show , she has lost weight not like she was ever big but she looks cool and she had her NUTRITIONIST on the show, as they talked about the do and donts ill share the important points i got.................................
* Exercise is 20% ur Food and Portions are 80% - i thot d other way round
*the leave 'em carbs - Bagels, bread/rice (white) pancakes - O lord Bread
*love 'em carbs - Wheat bread, corn, oatmeal brown rice - I still get bread
*Greens r very important
*Portion control
*Protein more of fish & chicken
STEPS -
*Write what u eat , whatever u take, a turkey sandwich, fries , burger - makes u accountable
*breakfast , oatmeal, fiber cereals, yogurt *fat free* blue berries
*lunch cld be ur love 'em carbs potatoes B/rice with some veggies, fish or turkey breast
* mid - snack FRUITS, bananas, apples, pineapples - i used to dislike fruits love dem now *like i had a choice*
*dinner should be light , veggies no eating after 7 or at most 8
So all of that being said i decided ill try this for 2 weeks and see how it goes, ill definitely keep u updated for sure, but exercise still needs to be done so i will do some exercise but need to get my portions right!!!
Ill let u know on the 26th hmm thats thanksgiving ok on the 27th how far i av come and what i av lost (smiles)
I wont share my pounds yet let me loose sum den i can say oh i lost 10 pounds.
So stay wiv me pple and motivate me plzzzz, ill see y'all soon!

TRYING TO FIND ME!!!

2009-11-10T00:52:00.006-05:00

This is the only place i think i feel safe, i am so sorry blogsville left u for too long, i came back and now twitter is trying to drag me back..no. I love my blogville fam Bagucci & cheeks (she is twam & fam love u gurl), but on d real u guys just encourage and inspire me,
So Happy new month pple, we made it this far and its great to be here, cant believe a year is gone already well almost, I hope we make this last few weeks last i intend to.
So whats been going on with me??? school's been crazy but i am doing it and i am glad its been a fun ride and i owe all thanks to GOD, he has been so awesome, wish i was perfect for him but even with all my imperfections he loves me still.
This past weekend was so crazy i rush out and den come back and sleep like a log of wood, d boo has been such a sweetheart though, so funny just wen i start to feel like its all crashing down God just sends him with the right words. ok with that said twitter? its about to put me in trouble well not exactly but i am loosing a lot of my time TWEETING and sumtimes pples tweet r quite annoying just like i am sure sum of mine are, but i pray to tweet more inspiring tweets these days but gotta check on my twam lov dem like crazy!!!
Twitter is an addictive drug to be banned whaaaaaat?? God i pray specially... detox me plss, i love my pple but it just seems blogsville is my home, i feel hugged already wooooo! i was a bit moody earlier and facebook is all love.
Guess i just opened too many doors on twitter i wish i didn't and now trying to shut 'em doors and it feels like it wont or whats there to keep? i might be talking in parables but my girl cheeks might understand me!! lol, i am good now though, i am choosing to love what God has blessed me with instead of what i desire, and yes my other project needs to be concentrated on.
Enough blabbing, just needed the comfort of my blog its almost 1am now, about to go sleep and thank God for the great pple he has placed in my life to take my hands when i seem to fall on the way side!!! special shout out to my BFF osagie, thanks for the talk.
Good night y'all and be d best in all u do
♥
Peace & love

THE PANTIES!!!

2009-10-31T08:16:00.005-04:00

Hey y'all

Hows everyone doing ? hope swell... moi ? i am good, God has been amazing his love is totally out of this world and sumtimes i am just too embarrassed to go thru what he has sacrificed for me and how i av shown gratitude. In all, he loves me regardless and each day i learn new things abt life and how he wants me to vision the world through his eyes.

So back to my topic....PANTIES!!!! i was in the restroom at work and 2 ladies from the opposite office suite came in and as we each walked into the loos, both were talking about Panties and for like 5 mins we were in there laughing as they joked about the different kind of panties. One said "Girl you knw u r getting old when you start to put 'em granny panties on".The other said " Girl shoo, putting them strings on sumtimes aint just my thing in the mornings....i was giggling cuz 2 of us were not in strings obviously.
My take...we have different kinds of panties and i guess depending on you personally or what makes u feel sexy, panties most importantly are meant to be comfy period.
I love BOY SHORTS i think its the best kind of panties ever Y? i believe in less is more, u dont have to bare ur butt to feel sexy, once in a while yeah for ur own private shows, but sitting down and the V keeps popping up is totally UNCOOL.
I never was a fan of strings, way back from college it just never really appealed to me , dont get me wrong i do wear dem when needed and i mean WHEN, but just the thought of having my bare skin on rough jeans?? no it couldn't stick. I mean why can't we just wear these granny panties and call it a day? everything is intact and less prone to bacterial infection .
It took me a while, i had a room full of girls who had all types, ropes, buttons, lips, teddy bears and i wld look and be like its better u dont wear anything this is just like wearing nothing, but the confort they felt i never could understand. Then of course the frenzy got the guys and they always wanted to see a girl in strings, all i can say is some HARDWORK!!!
Then i discovered boy shorts......i dont knw about anybody else but personally it puts the C in comfort, its sexy and c'mon girls a show for ur man leaves d imagination in overdrive than when its all out in strings PERSONAL OPINION no need to shoot me.
I cant lie i love granny panties, some r cut a bit sexy and still seamless so its still worth it like the hanes, victoria secrets and all i just believe u should be comfortable in your under garments, considering a lot of factore like COMFORT, BACTERIAL INFECTIONS and my mum always said this (GOD FORBID U AV TO BE STRIPPED IN PUBLIC FOR HEALTH REASONS, U MUST BE READY TO EXHIBIT CLEAN AND AN EYE POPPING UNDERWEAR) not in her words exactly but what i could come up with after so many years of her warning us about cleanliness with underwears.
Anyways like i stated earlier its a matter of personal opinion, i am not condemning strings its just not a FORTE i would only wear it if it is compulsory to, thongs r more comfortable for me. I have friends who believe otherwise but panties wont be the reason why we wont get along (smiles).
As kanye west said of his girl AMBER ROSE "She's got an ass that cld swallow up a G-string" tru dat which is why ill also say ur butt type shld determine if you are in strings or not or rather get ur size, some ladies wear strings and its hanging out of their crack, that is just an awful sight to behold. For my big butted ladies, yep its cool to show ur butt and all but sumtimes a full panty firms up ur backside incase u did not know, if u have a big butt u need to exercise them to be firm, u dont want to av a wobbly backside, dat just aint cute....
So my pples, whichever one is comfortable and makes you feel sexy pls by all means wear it as for me i say it out loud BOY SHORTS baby!!!!

BACK & BETTER!!!!

2009-10-26T11:20:00.006-04:00

Hello everyone,
Nice to be ere again esp with positive energy lol, the last week was crazy for me as i said in my earlier post, it was a ride i wish to forget well maybe not. i cld not say much on my blog cuz the sis might av seen it, her bday was on Saturday, so her boyfriend planned a surprise party for her and urs truly had to organize the whole shin ding without her knowing, cuz she is NOZZZZZZY.
All discreet, my assignments whipping my butt, work, out shopping, getting food to be catered, invitations and all, dont get me wrong it was not like the ball or sumfin but in the time frame i was overwhelmed phew!! glad its over. It was fun and and my love to all the lovely pple who came out, may the almighty celebrate u guys, the Sis was shocked and overwhelmed, she is a shy person so dat crowd all chorusing surprise just numbed her entire anatomy , lol, Damola way to go bro!!!
Back to me, so saturday was the party, cleaning up and all was fast and i went back to my math assignment i still had not finished, i cld not do much my brain was in overdrive so i slept, i cld not even eat during the party was just thinking of too many things, i danced though, o yes naija beats r it and i wld never NOT MOVE MY HIPS TO DEM!!. I wake up sunday all knackered and remembered i promised my girl to honour an invitation to her church for a programme "Be Enpowered" Christ Embassy, she has invinted me like 3 times now considering she did the catering for the party, i told her i wld come and den the day creeps in and i am thinking, i av till midnight today (sunday) to submit this assignment bla bla bla, i had not taken a shower by 4.20pm it started at 5. i decided ok maybe ill just not go but den my spirit said GO, i dashed into the shower took a quick one, got dressed and we rolled...
I AM GRATEFUL I LISTENED TO GOD, i was so blessssssed and he touched me, it was too powerful, even before the pastor got to me i was like burning all over and the spirit of God just took control, i wont even lie, sum times as he was preaching d word , i was dozing in my mind but he said sumtin that jolted me back to life "THERE R 2 TYPES OF PPLE, THE ONES WHO R INSPIRED BY THE FEAR OF FAILURE & THE ONES WHO DARE TO DREAM OF SUCCESS" c'mon it was like i got tazed with a gun, thats my word for this week and i shall speak forth into my circumstances and believe, it was a word for me cuz he knew i needed to hear somethings considering i av not been constant in going to church... i missed it so bad and i can tell i am headed back sooner than the devil thinks!!
So i get back home abt 9, desperate housewives and assignment, u see i am hilarious, thru sleep and sum chicken i got thru to it and today i woke up ready to battle another week but this time with God and priotizing.
Back to work now, hope to see u soon, shout out to my blog daddy & mummy Bagucci & Solomonsydelle..they r too nice to me , Lol.

Mola

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